i wonder..

i wonder what it would have been like.

stories of the past make the present we're living today.
that's why i always wonder, how it would all flow
had the chapters been twisted a little differently.

how, had it not been for the chase of an old crush?
i wouldn't even have known you any better.

how, had we not sat across the classroom?
i wouldn't have even noticed you a single bit.

how, had we not been in the same boat, facing relationship crisis?
we wouldn't have even sparked any form of conversation.

how, had i not gone to indonesia over that weekend?
i wouldn't have realised that i actually need you to fill me up.
i wouldn't even have gathered the courage to confess to you.

how, had you not have been brave enough to conquer your nerves on 14th Feb 07?
i wouldn't have the slightest of idea that my feelings have been reciprocated.

how, had it not been for the year-end exams?
we wouldn't have spent that much time together,
and it wouldn't have dawned upon me how badly i need you
to guide me in becoming a better person.

how, had we not been strong-willed enough to fight all fronts,
to overcome all barriers, to persevere through all pain, to last this long?
i wouldn't even want to think how things would have gone.
cos now, the way it is, things are going perfectly well.

to some, four and a half years ain't seem like a long time.
but to us, to both SHILIN and I,
to accept all challenges, to make our point and eventually thrive,
it means a whole lot personally.

and insyaallah, with His guidance and strength,
we'll take it a long way, a long long way into the future.