Friday, October 9, 2009

for the record, i admit my mistake.
i was a disappointment.
i never thought my ignorance would cause so much hurt.
it did, and it did real bad.
and i'm sincerely sorry to those who have suffered from the consequences.

yes, i cheated.
cheat, was a word i truly underestimated.
cheat, to me, is striking off a romance..
be it flirt, fling, hook-ups - all these while you're attached.
i did none, none of the above.

yeah, yeah.
first crush, maybe that was why.
maybe i gave in too much to her, but i didn't intend all those all along.
i had no feelings, no interest. nothing.
maybe i was too concerned, maybe i was too nice being a friend.
maybe, that was where my fault lies.

whatever i may say, nothing could justify what i believe was right.
cos all that i say now makes no value.
i'm a cheat, and that's what you will always believe in.

sorries no longer work.

i believe you have your views.
and i do have my own stories.
one question lingers in my mind,
and i believe only i could comprehend the answer.

am i cheating when all along i had loved you, and i had not done anything that crosses the border?
if there's ever a place i deserve to be in right now,
it'll be deep down bottom from the face of the earth.
and that is,
even if mother nature is willing to forgive my heartbreaking acts.