Mohamo Isan

2009-10-09T00:25:00.003+08:00

for the record, i admit my mistake.
i was a disappointment.
i never thought my ignorance would cause so much hurt.
it did, and it did real bad.
and i'm sincerely sorry to those who have suffered from the consequences.

yes, i cheated.
cheat, was a word i truly underestimated.
cheat, to me, is striking off a romance..
be it flirt, fling, hook-ups - all these while you're attached.
i did none, none of the above.

yeah, yeah.
first crush, maybe that was why.
maybe i gave in too much to her, but i didn't intend all those all along.
i had no feelings, no interest. nothing.
maybe i was too concerned, maybe i was too nice being a friend.
maybe, that was where my fault lies.

whatever i may say, nothing could justify what i believe was right.
cos all that i say now makes no value.
i'm a cheat, and that's what you will always believe in.

sorries no longer work.

i believe you have your views.
and i do have my own stories.
one question lingers in my mind,
and i believe only i could comprehend the answer.

am i cheating when all along i had loved you, and i had not done anything that crosses the border?

2009-10-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

if there's ever a place i deserve to be in right now,
it'll be deep down bottom from the face of the earth.
and that is,
even if mother nature is willing to forgive my heartbreaking acts.

away to china; right here waiting.

2009-09-16T23:11:00.005+08:00

feeling unnecessarily extraordinarily anxious now.
haven't had any signs of dear today.
no text message, no calls, nothing on msn.
wonder what's up with that.

maybe i shan't worry too much.
but then again, why shouldn't i?
maybe the programmes are keeping her real occupied.
but dear said they should have some time on their own.
and the programmes aren't suppose to tie her down till 11, right?
nothing's making sense.
she's got her own reasons, i know.

been waiting on msn for the past hour, or so.
let's just hope, dear's not gonna let her friends use the comp for so long.
if she does.. again, then what's the point of our initial planned meeting time at 11?
i really want all these to end as immediate as it can.
sick and tired of worrying, and waiting, and getting angered and what not.
it's frustrating, if you wanna know.

away to china; right here waiting.

2009-09-15T12:58:00.006+08:00

24 hours on.
my first post of the 10-days tormenting ordeal.
at least the only consolation i could get is.. it's just 9 days away.
i'm not exeggarating any facts, but it's true i've been feeling quite distraught since i left the departure viewing mall.
the feeling it gets, it's as if dear's gonna be away for very long.
but 10 days ain't very short either.
10 days equals to the accumulated number of days she's been away on holidays since we were together.
bad enough, ain't it.

thinking again, that's over one week.
one-third of a month.
and given that we met almost every other day,
10 days is a pretty big deal.

just 24 hours, and i've been worrying so much.
china's china after all.
looking at the imports we've got here,
the impressions i get aren't that good.
which means, i've got lotsa things to worry about especially when dear's at their motherland.

my whole self is like a child trapped in a war.
maybe just no physical damage, or trauma.
but we're seeking one common hope;
anticipating for the agony to end as soon as possible.

d-dover day!

2009-09-09T02:26:00.007+08:00

that's my dear for you!

me, with my long sleeves and army backpack. (:

i didn't ask for this shot, but it turned out pretty nice. hehe!

dear unglam shot no. 1. that's her expression of liking something too much. she does that to me, ALWAYS.

dear's unglam shot no.2. i don't know what this was about, but my camera shot's timing not that bad huh.

pretty, ain't it?

that's us. two months away from 2nd year!

an awkward shot. i didn't realise i was covering my *peepee*, until now when i'm writing this very sentence. HAHA!

the plan was unplanned.

in other words, it was a so-last-minute thing.

dearest yearned to return to the old neighbourhood of dover for the longest time possible,

and yesterday was the day we made her wish fulfilled. LOLS.

dearest and i, we had initially planned for a army-open-house-outing with the rest of her classmates.

we were all set to go; i even woke up at 8 for that.

but things didn't go our way.

we had planned for a meet-up at 9.30 @ boon lay interchange.

but when we reached at 9.45, her friends were neither nowhere to be seen, nor had replied her msg.

and so we thought, we would have a change of plans.

dearest wanted to go for a little shopping for travelling stuffs, while i had a task to find new set of sandals, courtesy of my mum's sponsorship. (:

suntec was the place to be, and so we moved from boon lay to jurong east for a direct bus to city hall.

then out of the blue, peiyi called me on the phone.. and asked where we were. LOLS.

i was like, shits man.

and so i told her we had already taken our leave and had a change of plans.

peiyi had so much wanted us to join along; she pleaded 'eh, come back lah..' in her pitiful tone several times. HAHA, how funny.

decided not to return, and so went to suntec!

it was a pretty aimless shopping.

got moisturizer and granola bars from carrefour, and that was the end of our shopping.

the rest of the time, we were just walking and walking.. in a pointless pursuit for sandals. :'(

and thinking that i still have my braziliano praia, decided against buying a new one.

save money huh. (:

had nowhere else to go, nothing else to do.

and so out of nothing, both of us suggested dover!

haha, i was actually excited for the place.

maybe cos i wanted to hear the stories and memories dearest had to share.

from her lifestyle, up till her love encounters there. (: (:

should i share?

haha, no no. it's personal.

only dearest knows what i'm talking about. LOLS.

so yeah, it's been so long since dear had left dover, that she forgot the stop we had to alight at.

and subsequently, missed a stop.

swear to god, the previous stop we missed was like 300 metres away?

stopped at the NUS busstop, and came across lotsa ITE students, among them fauzi and pe'eh.

walked to the opposite side of the road, on this very worn-out concrete pavement.

we were convinced it would lead us to the dover road estate, so we walked on.

just as we wanted to take a turn, we realised the pavement had reached a dead end!

like wth!

and a sight of a huge terrain of grass stared at us.

it was all muddy and wet. eee...

we were both in whites, and were both in covered shoes.

dear wore her new pair, unfortunately for here that is.

walked, walked, walked.

and poooom, we reached the 1980's.

or that was what i first thought! HAHAHA.

to those who have seen dover, you may know what i'm uttering about.

the neighbourhood, the blocks precisely.. looked torn and tainted!

dover was like an island on it's own.

i see no children, i see no mats & minahs.. the life there was slow-paced, much to the contrast of life on the fast lane.

i see pretty much elderly; there wasn't any much life besides the sounds of the tele, and the chatterings of uncles and aunties.

half of the number of shops were closed.

provision shops dominated the terraces of shops which encircled the central market.

we received stares and glares from uncles and foreign workers alike, no thanks to dearest.

too eye-catching, i guess. LOLS.

dover was an old estate with little new breath of life;

apartment blocks were grey; perfectly reflecting the sober yet serene living it offers.

dover suitably resembles the existence of sweet love letters;

fast facing extention in the face of the rapid improvements -

dover lives on as one-of-its-kind in the ever-changing environment in singapore,

while love letters are fast replaced by short-message-services and emails.

undoubtedly old-fashioned, but they are dying.

sad, pretty sad. :(

so well anyway.

dearest should be thankful that she could still visit her much-loved neighbourhood.

i totally envy her.

i have no places to share my childhood memories from,

i saw block 19 demolished to it's very barren patch of land. :(

that was my best house yet, cos it's got two huge halls!

and the thing i loved about it was, the period of time i lived there was so care-free,

unbound by troubles and worries.

everyday was school, eat and play.

books, rice and soccer.

the life was so much the same like the dover mentioned above.

sober, quiet.. yet tranquil.

:'( sob sob.

i've still got west coast to share, the very least.

i lived at block 709 from the time i was 0 month, till i was 5.

i had imprecise memories, apart from shouting my heart out at the window, and getting scolded by my late granddad for playing with scissors.

i've only got photos to share.

although i grew up in teban gardens, my life was all west coast.

i simply lived the past 17 years around the west coast area,

it's too deep in my blood to imagine myself leaving.

i know teban gardens, pandan gardens, clementi and west coast at my fingertips.

i know every single corners, and block around here. LOLS.

it's been a really long post, guess i'll call it a day.

it's 3.58am as i end off this post.

blog again soon, aiye?

nights to all those sound asleep now.

and one thing left for dear,

i love you. (:

my fasting weekend. (:

2009-09-07T02:43:00.003+08:00

from left - haslinda (in white), danial, myself and huzaini!

that's my qifa clique. (:

i enjoyed this past saturday really alot. (:

it was the earliest time i left home since the fasting month started.

my day started off with a meet-up with you-know-who, who else... DEAREST!

it had been a while since i saw her, and was looking forward to the meet-up.

the past meetings has really been all about china.

yesterday was no different, as dearest had to shop for necessary travel items.

headed off to jp, watson's precisely.

bought quite a lot of stuffs, like shampoo, toothpaste and disposable.. ehem, undergarments. (:

i was in the mood to shop too; i longed for long sleeves casual top.

combed around jp, but to no avail. :(

and dear, she bought heels too! for presentations and some shits over at china.

really ain't looking to the 14th, for like once in our relationship.

we'd be celebrating our 22th month, but that's the same day dear would be leaving. HAIS.

that'll be like a week from now. wow.

gonna be a torrid period, but i guess i'll just try to be fine.

my qifa peeps planned for a break-fast a few weeks back,

and so we had our meal at zam zam's restaurant somewhere near bussorah street.

initial meeting time was at 6, but waited till 7 for everyone else to come.

and by the maghrib prayer time, we were still strolling to the foodplace.

the funny thing was, mohsin brought A WHOLE BOX of dates along.

that was pretty hilarious; come on, no one ever does that. LOLS.

it was thoughtful though, he had good intentions. (:

i had chicken murtabak which i shared with mohsin.

i didn't know why, but i was already full by my first slice of murtabak.

managed to finish eventually, after much dilly-dallying. HAHA.

went for prayers over at sultan mosque, and unsurprisingly,

only me and again, mohsin were the only ones who prayed. LOLs.

that's my peeps for you.

went to bali lane for.. SHEESHA!

that was like the first time i had those in singapore.

tried a couple times over at johor before, and i have one set of sheesha at home.

we were shunned by several shops initially, cos some of us.. like me, were underaged. HAHA.

managed to settle down at this certain shop, but we had to hang out at the outdoor area.

i was fine with that, as long as i could sheesha and slack. (:

shared stories of our lives, and got to know that

muzzamir's now in RTC, for rioting..

nadiah has a child now, with god-knows-who.

and everyone who were present yesterday smoked, apart from me.

sad, ain't it? to see that your childhood friends are drifting to negative ways.

i'm lucky i know where i stand.

dearest was behaving very well yesterday, and didn't have to quarrel with her at any point of time.

i learnt to be honest, as i told dear every occurences that i experienced yesterday.

i know dearest's a bit bothered, especially when i'm hanging out with a clique that has got my ex-girlfriend in it.

but no worries babe, i know my limits and i know the rights and the wrongs.

love you babe. (:

anyways, i'll be going to the army open house tmr!

last day, and so i'm hoping for very little turnout.

i don't like crowds, seriously man.

gonna go with dearest, and her clique.

looking forward. (:

till tomorrow,

chiaos!

there's something about your smile. (:

2009-09-01T00:55:00.003+08:00

the date's 31st august.
it only means.. TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION!
not much of a celebration for me.
overslept, woke up really late.
and eventually only get to meet one teacher. LOLS.

tanglin's still got a place in my heart.
that was where i gained my identity, where i first tasted popularity,
where i picked up leadership, where i experienced football success..
whoa, i had so much bittersweet memories.
man oh man, and who can forget all my scandals. hehe. (:
one girl to another in a flash.
imagine, i was romantically linked to three girls within a year.
dude, what was i thinking back then?!
now appearing to take it slow, sticking to the one and only. (:

man, can't forget my 'tanglin bo-bei-chao' times.
that's the team's pre-match warcry by the way. LOLS.
can't forget the warm-ups and everything.
and, can't forget the crowd we had on vital matches.
dear was among them on several occasions last time. hehe.
man, how can i forget how our players drained themselves out on every match,
how we played so well, so organized and very stable.

i was, and still extremely proud of my teammates-cum-bestfriends.
we got to the national levels for three years in a row.
sec 1 was totally crap, didn't have much playing time.
sec 2 was so much better, i was the captain under mr. awang's guidance.
and from then on, my trophy collection began. (:
got 4th in west zone's, while finishing 6th in nationals.
sec 3 was by far the best! (: (:
played in a team with so many national players, yet i still managed to appear in every match at the left flank!
got 3rd in west zone's, and 4th in nationals! lols.
sec 4 was where i regained captaincy responsibilities,
and that year we ended 4th in west zone's, and 5th on the national ranking!
man, i gotta list all these achievements down before my memories of the past fades.
really proud. (: especially when we were coachless when i was in sec 4!
wanna thank mr. wan, coach and mr. ng for everything.
and my teammates (saiful, ismail, aidee, razif, asri, kevin, johani, suhairi, weixiong, jufree, karrazi).
those 4 years are to be stored in my memory storage forever! (:

so yeah, after tanglin, heading down to ikea with the fantastic four!
that's mich, cheechin, meiyun and lastly my gf, shilin.
they had so much fun gossiping, while i had so much fun eavesdropping.
it was hard to understand the mandarin at some point, anyway. LOLS.
went there to eat. oh, forgot to add 'they' at the front of the previous sentence.
i didn't eat, obviously.
mich had like three plates of food, and she was sharing table with me.
so me, as a religious man with strong faith, resisted the sights and temptations of food.
it was real tough; those crispy golden french fries were calling me man..
HAHA.

i spent the best part of my day after that, while i was alone with dearest.
we went to jurong point, to settle some remittance stuff and to have break-fast.
man, the feeling was so damn, freaking, uber shiok!
dearest was so damn stunning, and we were both in jeans.
it's not always that we're both in jeans, and so i felt like we were a matured couple. LOLS.
and the feeling of love, came back to life again.
it's been long since i had this very feeling, maybe cos...
well, i admit.. i've been taking things for granted.
today i feel so loved, and i feel so much in love that i literally wanted to give dear my whole heart. LOLS.
i want to live a day like this everyday!
i want to never take things for granted anymore, hopefully.
and i want to never scold dearest anymore.
i want to be.. a good boyfriend like i was before. HAHA! (:

had a lengthy heart-to-heart period with dearest at the staircase flight.
i looooove those times cos we get to talk alot, really lots.
and the other thing i love about it.. i get to appreciate dearest alot.
i love watching dearest smile, because it's contagious.
it gets me on the smiling mood. (:

and that's why dearest, i told you i wanna spend every moment smiling at you.
i wanna get addicted to your smile, so that i can eventually kick my scolding habits away. (:
you know your smile wipes off my anger away. (:

i feel so lovey-dovey right now.
so unlike me, especially after honeymoon period's over. LOLS.
nevermind, i love the feeling of falling in love.
and i wanna make sure that every moment spent with dearest stays like that, from now on.

goodnight babe,
goodnight world. (:

where are you and i'm so sorry
i cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody and always

2009-08-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

whoa, i need to post some photos.
need to add life to my blog.
gotta find some photos to post soon. (:
arsenal's leading 1-0 now.
man i love arshavin's rocket.
now that's my favourite player.

my weekend!

2009-08-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

man, i really enjoyed yesterday! (:
had break-fast over at spaghetti too, before going for little shopping.
spent so much time with dearest after that, talking crap all over.

anyway, watched the movie 'Taken' starring Liam Neeson.
rented the disc with dearest on thursday.
man, i've been longing to watch the movie before today.
the plot's so interesting, what more me being a huge fan of action movies.
i wanna be a dad like him, one who would go to all lengths to save your offspring.
was really captivated throughout. HEHE.
engrossed, as dear would say.

going back to tanglin on monday.
hope to see my ex-teachers, after a full year of not meeting.
and eager to meet my other friends, really miss them much!

i'm on the tv now.
enjoying my super-saturday-football-weekend.
excited anticipating the arsenal-man united game! (:
was watching liverpool-bolton & spurs-birmingham earlier.
two things i gotta say.
liverpool was super-duper disgusting; they committed so many fouls which could have resulted in red cards.
and they thrailed the match twice; i don't think they deserve to get the three points.
i think they'll lose the next game. (:
and spurs, no better.
lucky-shit. winning goal in the 95th minute.
eee.

ten more minutes to the big game. (:
let me get myself mentally prepared. LOLS, bullshit.
chiaos!

i seriously ain't got any titles for this, pardon.

2009-08-28T14:10:00.003+08:00

exam's long gone!
engineering maths was okay, except for some parts.
cos i've got varying answers that were different from mine.
quite worried, but hey, what's done is done.. right?
ACDA was so much fun!
cos i anticipated the paper with so much suspense.
i studied the whole module via past year papers, simply cos i didn't know where to start. LOLS.
was kinda surrendering my fate to god, seriously.
and god was kind enough to put things to my favour. (:
alhamdulillah.

got my new pair of boots!
white-red nike tiempo costing 75 bucks!
had azzrul and fazlee accompanying me.
dearest was all set to tag along, but she overslept on that fateful day. HAHA.
so, surveyed jersey purchasal and printing as well.
got some good offers, noticably puma and umbro.
best offer was $43 for both, full set.
leaning towards umbro, cos puma's design rather plain.
but it's all up to the mates also.
i'm fine with either. (:

went to fico yesterday!
with 25 others.
great platform to test out my tiempos.
it was a good outing, got to display few moments of brilliance. CHEY.. lols.
it was rather challenging, given the fact that all of us were fasting.
my throat was freaking dry, and felt very sticky. ee.
but i had pledged earlier that fasting ain't stopping me from football,
and football ain't stopping me from fasting. (:

me and my hermanos broke fast at somewhere really random.
bought big bottled-drinks, with crackers and fruits half an hour before break-fast.
had to settle for somewhere which could accomodate approximately 15 people,
so we decided for the.. playground! LOLS.
felt really like some mats-mats who are homeless.
had a great time there, talking trash all over with fazlee leading the line. HAHA.
had a proper break-fast over at banquet @ jp, i had this awesome spicy ramen!
recommended, from the korean stall.
the stallowner was very nice too, to explain all the dishes that we clearly were not familiar to.
5 bucks, but it was all worth it. yum yum! (:

today, today.
planning to meet up with babe for break-fast at spaghetti too!
that was what we planned earlier, don't know if it's still on.
dear's watching movie as i'm typing this down.
so, i'm unsure of all plans today.

now that exam's over, i feel that i have nothing to work on to.
feel empty, lols.
wanna go out, but it's fasting period.
i'm okay with that, should wait till it ends.
while ramadhan is still here, i should capitalise on this chance to be good. (:

chiaos readers.
much loves! wheeee.

a long hiatus, a really really long hiatus!

2009-08-23T16:13:00.003+08:00

whoa, it's been a long time coming.
too long that i totally forgot my blogger's username and password combination. LOLS.
but here i've arrived to revive my long-time-dead blog back to life again! (:

anyways, a million and one things have taken place since i last posted an entry.
been really busy with school, especially with Futsal and my Interdisciplinary Studies module.
something not really much a big deal to brag about, but I'm the president for Futsal! Wheeeet!
but then again, great power come great responsibilities.
luckily i've got johnny to assist me in my stuffs!

IS module was such a crap at first.
my group, 4B!GWindows, picked up the idea of holding a main event for some Ngee Ann's National Day Carnival shit.
I mean yeah, it was literally shitty!
Nevermind, never wish to elaborate further.
but at least on the positive note, my group's 'Don't Forget the Lyrics'-inspired gameshow put much life to the dead 'carnival', much to our satisfaction!
And by the way, got to stay at the loft for the second time! LOLS.

Exam period now, and as I'm typing my first post since 4 months ago, I'm actually reciting my ACDA formula!
i can multitask, okay... (:
left with two papers, same with dearest!
my semester holiday officially starts at 11.10a.m on this coming Tuesday! woohoo!
that's like two days from now!
cooool cooool. :P
but then again, fasting month's here.
no, no. not saying that fasting's no good.
but it only means that i can't do certain things, like... watching movies, sun-tanning at sentosa, etc.
as a consolation, fasting month would give me lotsa time to gym out and build up on my mass!
trying to visit the gym daily, if possible. (:

well, I've got thousand and one things to do this holidays!
firstly, i'll set alot of days after the fasting month to go out with dearest!
gotta spend alot of time, gonna do lotsa stuffs!
i promise you that, babe.. although i have no ideas yet in mind. LOLS.
anw, babe's gonna be away to china for a ten-day trip starting on 16th September.
gonna be kinda lonely, but i'm sure to spend it well.
hope those break-fast outings scheduled with my friends would happen within that period of time.
outing with primary school friends, and possibly with my fellow tanglinians.
looking forward to those!

i'm kinda excited that i'll be getting back active in the field football scene.
it's been really long since i last played on the greens, so long that i last owned my own pair of boots last year.
my malay ECE-BME mates will be forming a soccer team, and i'm one of the star signings. (hehe, self-proclaimed!)
plans for the purchasal of jerseys, locations of training sessions and other details have taken place.
i'll be donning number 8, i think.
but what is sure is that i'll be featuring at the left flank! cristiano's at that position at galacticos, ain't it?
mates, be sure to see some of him in me, and some of me in him. HAHA, wth.
really really excited about the prospects of playing field football once again, after a year on the futsal court! (:

immediate plans after exams have been confirmed.
visiting queensway with dearest, fazlee and azzrul to survey some jerseys, and to get my new pair of boots!
looking at some interesting designs now, but i'm definitely ruling out adidas. (:
and queensway, haircut @ jurong point in the afternoon!
woohoo, 43 hours to the end of exams.

gotta start mugging again now, CHIAOS!
my blog's so dead that i'm sure no one's gonna read this post so sooon, at least not until the end of August. LOLS.
lastly, wishing the best of lucks to those taking their exams, and not to forget my fellow Muslims, Selamat Berpuasa in the holy month of Ramadhan! (:

Guess who's back!

2009-04-16T00:20:00.004+08:00

Nononono, Not 'Isham!
YEAH, IT's ME! SHILIN coming back with a new look.
(aiya, not me obviously) it's mohamo-isan!
seriously i dont even know why he made a silly blog url.
though i gave him that name. wahahaha.

Isham is obviously not blogging anymore.
guess he lost the mood. so i hope a new skin will like make him blog more.
and more importantly, think of what car to buy and drive me around next time!
I'm always blogging on his behalf lor...
ah, it's 2 days past 17th month.
yeap Happy 17th month 'Isham!
so ironic.

LOVES!

readers, do continue coming back cus I'll force him to blog somehow(:

oh ya, anw, both our blogs are about going home! HAHA. LAME!
but mine's a long road and his is a car!
that's how we complement each other in life! (:

@$%^&*^$@!

2009-03-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

well, i certainly don't want to start a scuffle of temper here.
i now really well you wanted to address this matter all along.
you had all these in your mind, and it was before time you let this blow off your head.
and it was before time you tell the whole world how bad i really am.

it's rare for me to blog my problems up here,
but it's a big deal for me, for you to expose your discontend and condemning me that far.
it's a real big deal that i'm getting back here after a couple of months of absence just to blog about it.

it's a real big deal for me, and for once i teared in the shower just to think that i'm not able to defend my own line of accounts, because i know i'm in the wrong.
or at least, you feel all the fault's on me.
i'm freaking upset and i feel very lost.

yeah, i know.
i've been hitting the gym lately, which means i have a new routine besides meeting you everyday.
but it is just wrong for me to go there early in the morning?
i go there at 10 in the morning just to make sure i have enough time to work out and so, i would be able to meet you up as soon as possible.
that is, at 1.
i've been sleeping quite late, and sometimes my day starts at noon.
and i forgo my gym routine just to meet up with you, not only for one occasion, but for quite a number already.
am i wrong?
why not, you do all the travelling.
why not, you be in my shoes.
why not, i be you. and become so much of a princess to wait at home just for me to give you a visit.
it's easy talking, getting out at me all the time.
i don't need anything from you, all i need is a mere understanding.

and hey, sorry.
but i've not met up with anyone else, earlier than i do when i meet you.
what nonsense are you spurting.

and i know i promised i'd met you today.
and i stayed up for the soccer match.
but one thing you gotta know, i didn't catch a wink before the kick-off.
and it's all because of you, maybe not directly.
but i did it all for you.
maybe you might wonder what you did wrong.
you'll get to know it real soon.

you tell me not to be sad?
how can i not be.
i feel i have something to defend, and i'm doing it, all right.
i'm really upset, disappointed.
i've talked to you all about it all along, and now you're bringing this matter up.
you've been appreciative, but..
i don't know. i feel you could give so much more.

i'm in the wrong, that's obvious.
but that doesn't mean you're not, although it may be a little minor.

whenever i'm alone with you.

2009-01-16T10:38:00.005+08:00

hey to all, salam sejahtera!
or in other words, good greetings! (:
it's been a week now, since i last updated a post here.
past week was crazy; schedules were tight and life's hectic.
managed to get past through it,but the coming week promises to be so much worse.

cats assignment, avionics project and human factors task.
they're all lining up to face me;
and that's what i call a real firing squad.
waiting to gun me down.

and so, the week went blah, blah, blah.
pretty nothing much, but at least i have three things to cheer about.
firstly, there was the futsal agm!
quite an emotional one for me, thinking that the seniors will be departing soon
and i'll be year two soon.
one great thing though, i was selected into the committee!
which means, the other three newly-nominated and me
will be conducting training sessions besides having to take over the CCA matters.
but one thing i'm not looking forward to, the trials for this april's poly intake.

secondly, fifa 09's already in my books.
got the folders from jeevan yesterday. (:
a big deal for me, this is. cos it means i don't have to waste 50 bucks to get the cd console.
coool stuff.graphics all great, and it looks so much more realistic than the previous versions.
i was wrong to say nothing could ever be better than fifa08.

and lastly, lastly!the best thing that could happen over the past month.
and that's always gotta be dear's and mine monthly celebration.
fourteen on the fourteenth!i'm so sorry sweetheart,
that we weren't able to carry out our initial plan.
i couldn't estimate the meeting duration,
that's why i met you like 50 minutes after out planned meeting time.
i could see i was a total disappointment to you, so sorry to spoil it all.

settled for a western dinner at holland village,
only the second time we've been there.
lambchop and chickenchop for us, and went over to coffee bean to chill out. (:
and that's where i handed the laptop over to dear, and presented her my creation.
a video, that is, one of the reasons why i was so occupied over the week,
so occupied that i wasn't able
to drop by this site here to blog my life out.

it took me weeks to finish it up, although it could have been done in days.
great video though, i would tear if i was the one being surprised with it. haha! wth.
so yeah, all went pretty cool except that i'm getting home real late as the days go by.
gotta get home earlier next time, before my dad blasts me off.
alright, i'll try to get pictures uploaded up here soon.

and by the way, to close things off, i have to admit one thing.
my new year resolution number 1 failed.
read my first post of the year to get me.

till the fifteenth, dearest.
i love you, endlessly. (:

magellan!

2009-01-09T22:54:00.004+08:00

whoa, a week flew past just like that.
or rather, a week of schooling just went past in a whiz.
lessons' tempo really went too fast, too quick for me to adapt to the pace.
besides getting the exam results, school was pretty normal.
except from the fact that dear and i are making good use of our time after school,
doing schoolwork instead of straying around shopping centres.
that's good, at least a minor improvement.

so anyway, i'm not looking forward to the weekends.
tons of work to do, and tests are all rushing on to me next week.
this is what i call rush hour.
nevermind, as long as i get to unwind myself a little bit or two,
i guess i'll do fine. (:

booked magellan today, and spend the first two hours finishing the rest of the bank job.
great movie, very very cool settings.
and great actors.
man, josh statham gotta be my new favourite actor. (:
weixiong and bernice did something really stupid today.
happened to chance upon my room, and did a lilttle catch-up with them.
training's starting next week! woohoo!
time to exercise, baby.

spent only a short while with dearest today, but nonetheless, it was fun like always.
watched chinese sitcom reunion dinner on mobtv, and had kfc for dinner.
i'm missing miss chua shilin real badly now,
and to make matters worse,
i won't get to meet her tomorrow!
nevermind, that'll inspire me to get on with life and look forward to sunday!
(:

today was a very, very fine day.
but nothing was better than planting a kiss on your forehead.
loves, my bunny hunny.
mwah!

love, all you need to know.

2009-01-08T23:32:00.004+08:00

went to school with dearest in the morning.
very cool, cos rarely got the chance to.
and i discovered a new route today,
but bet i won't be using it very often.

anyways, school was great.
today was the first day of the cca fiesta.
went for a walk-about, during lesson time. HAHA.
nothing much though, and sadly futsal ain't too big a CCA to be given a booth for our own.
shucks.

got the final pieces of exam results today,
great but not too fantastic.
for a subject i thought i'd do best, i frustrated myself.
EG2, or engineering maths 2, i got 77 out of 100.
was expecting a little bit higher, at least beyond the 80 mark.
but, but. different is to said about DEL!
i thought i would do averagely well, but the result was beyond my belief.
i mean, i'm not trying to boast the shit out of me.
but i'm too happy to share this!
come on, i was weak in the binary numbers and all.
and only finished my revision cycle the morning before exams.
96 was not something i was expecting, but i actually did it.
*smiles.

managed to spend time with dearest after school.
she did her work while i was partially slacking and sweating my ass trying to download the HumanFactor reading assignment.

dearest looks best when she smiles.
or at least, when she looks at me in the eye.
a shoutout to you, sweetheart.
i'm enormously sorry for not giving you the attention you craved just now.
now, i'm kicking myself cos i'm missing you terribly.
let tomorrow be a new day, alright?
i'll treat you better next time around. (:

you held my hand and asked me what's love.
my reply was dissatisfying just now, i know.
now i'm compensating myself.
you wanna know what's love?
read up all your entries from november 2007, and there you have it,
all you need to know.
love; ours began at the singapore river on the night of the fourteenth.

school. (:

2009-01-07T18:19:00.006+08:00

third day into the school term, and i'm having mixed feelings.
firstly, i've never managed to get through the three days without any short nap during lesson time.
that's bad. maybe i've yet to re-adapt to the schooling lifestyle.
guess i need to have more rest and sleep earlier every night. (:

and, and. results! yes, results!
did very badly for my first paper.
avionic systems, that is.
and i merely passed, a close shave i've got to say.
55 out of 100.
how does that sound?

today received back another paper.
the one i told i would fail, or barely passed.
but hey, my intuitions proved to be wrong.
i was afraid for nothing, all along.
although the mark's not that fantastic,
but considering i started revising only the night before,
it's absolutely unbelievable.
87 out of 100.
sounds good, ain't it.
my other results better be better.

mash up!

2009-01-05T23:49:00.004+08:00

i love the first day of new year.
but i hate the months to follow that is going to crumble up on me.
today was the start, and fortunately, an average one.
softball kicked off the school term, cats tore me apart by the third hour.
but meeting dearest was the best thing that could happen.
she's the one who keeps me going;
the carrot at the end of the race. (:

loads of stash left undone.
let me remind myself - DEL by thursday, Human Factor by friday.
get back to your senses, mr.
get your ass back on track.
shape up or ship out.

pizza hut for dinner today.
was trying to compensate for a promise made to dearest last month.
hope it would be enough to fulfil the promise.
i've got some cash back flowing in the bank.
but i'm not gonna dry myself up.
i've set my records straight.
new year, new beginning.
resolution 2009 no.2: buck up and sprint the final stretch until february the twenty-third.
and resolution no.3: be thrifty, and save up for the future. (:

anyways, i've decided to spice up things a little down here.
i'll add a new feature here;
i'll name it my daily random thoughts.
you see - in the current age, we have audio recorders, audio players and cameras.
these are things that could capture moments or experience that suits our sense of hearing and sense of sight.
so i wonder, and i'm longing for the time when a great man will emerge and lead us to a life-changing instruments that could capture taste, smell and feelings.
i'd be flabbergasted.
let's ponder for a second.

anyways, i forgot to add a major part in the last entry which covers my countdown celebration.
dear fainted in the train.
she was complaining of major headaches and urges to vomit prior to the incident.
i was lucky, though, that she was clinging onto me.
at least i managed to break her fall.

and i was again fortunate, that i'm equipped with a little or two about health knowledge.
my first instincts made me told me to clear her airway, ensuring that she keeps breathing.
oxygen's the word, baby. (:
i fanned her continuously and tapped her cheeks throughout the trip,
making sure she stays concious. that's important, mind you.
just when i was struggling to find other alternatives to keep her awake,
god sent me a helping hand.
a good samaritan - an aging chinese uncle, that is - handed me what i needed most.
a bottle of medicated oil.
that's so essential, i needed to keep her nerves active.
although it was only a few stops from redhill to clementi, time seemed to move oh-so-slowly for once.
i managed to overcome all fears and obstacles, and dear was back well on her feet.
once again people, brown boy saves the day. (:
a proud moment for me, at least dearest would know that i'm really capable of taking care of her. (:

it's 1.10 now.
i'd better get going.

bunny hunny, that's what you're destined to be.
and one last word for you. (:
know that i'll always be here when you need me, alright?
loves and regards,
mohamo isan. (:

new year's photos!

2009-01-05T12:38:00.005+08:00

centennial tower's the place to be.

taking a breather after a long-distance walk throughout the city hall district.

somehow looks like a wedding photo. random post though.

there once again, cool photos but lousy quality.

the first photo of the day.

suntec city tower 3, it was so empty we went photo-crazy.

suntec once again. (:

photo-crazy, like i said.

the coolest shot, from my pov. the lighting effect at its best.

the funniest thing was, while going insane taking photos at centennial's, we didn't realise there was a CCTV right behind us. and so, all our stupid and strange actions were caught on tape.

and at one instance, while i was placing the camera at a great angle on top of the wooden barricades, a security officer emerged from a security room to take a look at me, staring me in the eye, thinking that i was attempting a theft or something like that.

what the hell.

new year, new me!

2009-01-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

man, i just have to reach this point where i have to
buck up, pull my asscheeks together and return to blogging.
new year's resolution no.1: blog frequently.
that's something i'm always hesistant, and reluctant to do.
but come this new year, with a new me,
be sure that i'll be posting entries frequently!
and i promise, more photos will be uploaded! (:

anyways, new year was a blast!
better than last year's, in some ways.
just that, this year had too much walking!
imagine, from raffles swissotel to boat quay,
boat quay to marina square,
marina to suntec, to get the movie tickets,
and back to marina, for fireworks,
and finally marina to suntec once again for movies.
if you get tired reading this, visualise how tiring it was to walk it yourself. (:

nonetheless, it was filled with fun!
apart from the fact that dear was a lil' pissed,
and was carrying loads of pain due to the blisters.
managed to had some quality time, and that means
being able to have lenghty chats about anything under the sun!
god, i love communicating with dear!

but there was something i miss.
and it's the thing that made last year's celebration so much sweeter.
i didn't had a shot for a mini-concert this time.
i really miss dear resting on my shoulders and me singing my melodies into her ears!
nevermind, next year will be a perfect comeback. (:

so anyways, pictures will be here by tomorrow latest!
i promise.
i need to catch a breather and take a rest now.
school reopens within the next 8 hours!
adios! (:

not one to forget;
loves and regards, dearest.

kl.. here i come!

2008-12-23T01:05:00.005+08:00

for once, tomorrow appears to be of pure reluctance and hesitance.
how i wish the minute could stop running now, so that i can get hold of today and wish tomorrow would come later.

but time and tide waits for no man, so i can't help but to get through with this painful moment.

i'll be leaving for a vacation tomorrow, and although it won't be far, but it appears distant, given that i have to leave dearest all alone for the coming days.
KL, will I be at.

anyways, a short note to whom i'll be missing terribly.
i assume you know who you are. (:
please, please do take care of yourself while i'm gone.
knowing myself best, i know i can't help but to bombard you with text messages just to make sure you're fine. so, put your phone at your fingertips. (:
and lastly, do always know that i'll be thinking of you at every instance, alright? (:

you're so deeply loved, sweetheart. (:
can't get enough of you, just don't have the heart to leave you, even for a number of days.
nevermind.

i love you from the deepest of my heart, dearest. (:

thirteenth, thirteenth!

2008-12-14T02:25:00.002+08:00

it's been two and a half hours since the clock struck midnight.
you weren't there to celebrate, but i know your soul's dancing merrily to my wishes.

just a month back, we were flying.
now we're thrown back down to earth, or rather, i was.
just when i thought i would be there at every moment you need me, i was wrong.

tmr's a new milestone.
the first month celebration coming into our first-year era.
but where will I be?
somewhere, but nowhere near your side.

I'm truly sorry my absence will ruin a supposed wonderful day.

nevermind, moving on.. let's cheer ourselves up a lil'.
it's been thirteen months.
not alot, but still, it keeps me wondering how i ever achieve this.
eleven more into our first aim, and i don't see why we can't go on.
this past month has been the best, from what I could remember.
quarrels have diminished, and times could not have been better.
that's simply tremendous.

so well, anyways.
a very HAPPY THIRTEENTH MONTH to my dearest sweetheart.
may this blissful journey go on with so much bless and love. (:

next up, the important one!
FOURTEENTH on the FOURTEEN!
so excited! (:

*you may be sound asleep now. but i'm really hoping you'll drop by here first thing in the morning. goodnight, honey.

annie! (:

2008-12-10T13:41:00.002+08:00

I don't know why I'm doing this at this part of time. But I just feel like doing this. Don't ask me why, or rather, never ever ask me why.

Although the First Anniversary may be approximately a month back,
the reminiscence can never fail to be washed off from this memory of mine.
UNIFORM was the word of the day;
as our bodies got clad in identical green LACOSTE polos and as our minds grew alike so much.
we knew, by then, that we're in for one hell of fun.

A year back, Clarke Quay witnessed what appear to be a historical moment.
and at the turn of a milestone, Flyers became its successor.
So sweet and serene was the atmosphere, as two minds romanced at the peak of the Ferris.
Life was a dream, for once.
And as the night ages, the same two minds became inseparable.
we were, hoping that time would stand still.
But it was not to be.

The best ever fashion to end would to extract a line from our song,
that "I love you - I still do, and I'll always do."
Dearest, I love you.

anniversary! (:

2008-11-14T10:53:00.001+08:00

DEAR! (:
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY!
I LOVE YOU!

fabula! (:

2008-11-04T12:33:00.012+08:00

hey, mood for updating is back! (:
i'm at the school's library now, having break.
so why not, update a lil'.

dear's absence over to thailand did no help to make my life any interesting.
one word to describe that weekend: empty.
the only best thing i did during dear's absence was to indulge sinfully over at sakura's with my family!
rate was $23 per head, and i really made full use of it. (:
i tried EVERY prawn available, and gosh.. the cheese and chilli prawn was awesome!
gotta go there again someday! (:

FAAAAAAAAASSSSSST FOOOOOORRRRRWAAAAAARDDDDDDDD!

friday, 31st October!
a night to remember! well, first-time experiences are always unforgettable! (:
it was, the night of NP@45!
the build-up to the event was damn funny.
the night before, then dear first announced that she'll be attending the event with her friends, WITHOUT ME, i was rather pissed off. come on, she didn't mentioned anything about it earlier.
didn't talk to dear for a moment, haha.
then at night, dear invited me along for the occasion. refused persistently at first, but i was rather feeling insecured - you know, when it comes to clubbing, anything can happen - so me, as a good boyfriend, agreed to join along. it was a good opportunity to make fresh ties with dear's classmates. (:

man, oh man. dj koflow was in the building, baby! LOLS.
great fun, and i danced like there was no tomorrow!
partied like a rockstar! HAHA.
so entertaining, dear was a dancing queen! (:

saturday, 1st november!
Can somebody just knock some sense into me, and tell me that one year has passed.
Just 365 days back, dear and I were celebrating her birthday on the night of our physics O's paper.

And today, we were together for the similar purpose yet again; the only differences were that she's a year older, and that we're already an official couple now.

Birthdays are truly to be enjoyed, and I can swear to anyone that we had the best time ever!
Underwater World was the place to be, and Swensens' - oh, it is always back there again - has never failed to live up to the occasion.

SKIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

the night of the first of november was one of the most unforgettable!
for the first time in my life, i organised a surprise!
and the best part, it was for my dear girl. (:
but hey, it would have all been impossible if it wasn't for my crew - mikhy, cabby, michee and purdey!
i swear to god, i tell you.. they are exactly the group of people you would want to have to create the greatest surprise ever.
i trusted them, laid the responsibilities on their shoulders.. and thank god, did they deliver what I was hoping for!
A REALLY SPLENDID EVENING! (:

the plan went smoothly - from blindfolding dearest with the school tie, to the pizza-dinner surprise, to the blinding "game", and finally the biggest surprise of all, the arrival of the cake and the fieryheart which bore dear's initials .
it was pretty cool, excellently planned and magnificently executed.
GOOD JOB, GUYS!
and belated it may be. but..
dear, happy seventeenth birthday! (:

2008-10-24T23:20:00.002+08:00

wow, for the first time ever.. class 1M1, or then-called 1K1, became so united!
and i have to say, the surprise was a total success! (:
the whole class was planning to create a belated surprise for JoLee, whose birthday was just a day before mine.
i was all part of the surprise, and even contributed 5 bucks for the cake.
totally didn't expect the surprise to get back on to me, and was caught off-guard.
no wonder, i was the one tasked to distract JoLee off while they prepared the cake.
azzrul actually wanted me off the prep work cos i was also part of the surprise.
well done, guys.
and especially to you, azzrul. i know you'll read this somewhere, somehow.
thanks for the shirt and the cake man, you were determined to keep the surprise a complete secret although you faced alot of setbacks.
respect! (: thank you so much.

after candle-blowing and cake-cutting,
sean, eugene, JoLee and me spontaneously bought two more slices of cakes for cedric and john!
john's celebrating his birthday tmr, as of 25th october, while cedric's on the 29th!
so happy advance birthday wish, dudes! (:

so well, today was the first of the many days dear's apart from me.
and i'm not taking it very well.
felt a total difference, having to head home straight after school.. eating lunch with my friends.
and most apparent, not having to feel the beeps and vibrations of my hp, cos you're not there to feel my inbox. :(
i'll be patient though, and what's this compared to the one year i've waited for you? LOLS.

anw, got stuck on the song 'if i were a boy' by beyonce, lately.
and was listening to it on the mp3 while on the way home.
and i teared a lil'.
i'm not exeggarating, but i feel totally empty without miss chua shilin!
so you, yes you.. please jolly well get back home soon. so that i don't have to miss you so much. HAHA!
as i've promised, i'll give dear another clue today. and it'll be: heitr.
good luck, sweetheart!

i'm going off now! chiaos!
love you, dearest! (:

2008-10-23T23:59:00.004+08:00

hey, back to blogging. it's been dead for a while, thank god i know that.

tuesday, 14th october was marvellous!
school was long, but was looking forward to the after-5-o'clock activities all day long.
headed down to holland village for our 11th month meal, at this muslim western food outlet.
very cool atmosphere;
during some moments, it felt like i wasn't in singapore. HAHA.
i had chicken chop, while dear had fish&chips! 5.80 each, standard price. (:
at by the roadside, downhill on the curb, indeed. LOLS.
dear was clad in her brand new forever 21 top, and looked absolutely great!
hot siol! haha.
swensens' gelato for dessert, had mixed nut crunch @ 5.90! (:
spent the night over at coffee bean, after much brain-cracking and hesitance,
simply cos we didn't had any plan B's after meal. LOLS.

thursday, the 16th, was a bomb! (:
and yes, it was my seventeenth birthday.
planned earlier to catch a movie, but didn't, eventually.
my phone got bombarded as early as the clock struck 12.
thanks everyone for the wishes! (:
and dear, it REALLY doesn't matter to me if you're not the first to wish me, yeah?
i have no qualms about that at all. the first doesn't mean it's the best wish, right?
in fact, or most expectedly, you sent me the longest and the sweetest text of all.
what could be better than that?! (:
headed to plaza singapura right after school, and had pizza hut for dinner!
didn't know pizza hut is currently having a very affordable meal offer..
of $11.90 for a whole set of pasta/baked rice/pan pizza, plus soup of the day, plus drinks, and ice cream. LOLS.
had chicken wings as well.
my stomach didn't go well for me during the whole course of the meal though, so had to make a visit to the toilet. took damn long..
but dear was so understanding and patient! didn't throw tantrum at all, how sweeeeeeeeeet! (:
love you, dearest. hehe.
the day was approaching night too quickly, that we decided against the movies.
went for shopping instead. (:
bought two mario kinder surprise-like eggs, which toy suprises inside.
had mario and his flower! adorable, actually. (:
it was the first ever time i spent my age-anniversary with my girlfriend, and no one had been more suitable if it wasn't you, dearest sweetheart! (:
thanks for the treat! (:

friday, the 17th.
school was pretty short, but it was a long day for me.
dear went over to leslie's place, and so i was a lil' lonely right after school.
so decided to head down to geylang to finally purchase the novel for mummy's birthday! (:
novel was at $14, while the vcd cost $10.
accompanied fazlee all the way down to his training centre at kampung ubi cc, and learnt new directions during the journey in bus 154. (:
at night, headed to pasir panjang to pick dearest up from leslie's.
many complications happened in between, but felt good that i was 'praised' as a good boyfriend. HAHAHAHA!
had kfc for supper! (: lols.

monday, 20th october. (:
back to training after a week absence, due to bad stomach flu.
but it was doing fine. (:
dearest's the best ever! waited for me to end training summore, 5-9! i love you so much.
thank you, dear. (:

tuesday, 21st october.
made a small suprise for mum, by placing our gifts at the round table just outside her door.
thought it was all good, but it was hurtful to hear that she had both the novel and the movie. :(
totally disappointed, but what to do.
i'm so proud of myself though, cos i was determined thruout the fight to get the novels. (:
caught movie with dearest! eagle eye was a hit!
and shia lebeouf; man, he's such a great actor. (: LOLS.
cinema's at west mall however, so the only best food we could get the was kfc. LOLS.
thanks for your company, dear. (:

23rd october!
school was short. (:
met dearest after school, and went to have our last meal together before she leaves for chiang mai. :( how lonely i'll be. LOLS.
had the usuals; rojak, minced meat noodle.
wanted to get a hoody today, but couldn't find any. so too bad, boy.
spent a lil' quality time with dear before i sent her home, and she cried. how sad i felt. :(
but it'll only be for a short while, i hope. (:
thanks once again, dear. (:

anyways! dearest's birthday coming wihtin the next 12 days.
and will be celebrating it on the first of november. (:
the plans aren't finalised yet, but it'll be a good one, i hope. LOLS.
so anw, to set the mood right and to keep the suspense up, gave dearest some clues and hints leading to the events for that day. (:
the letters given are scrambled, and the words formed are also in random sequence to create a sentence.
that means.. even after guessing the words right, she still have to rearrange the words given over the next 12 days to form the sentence, which is the theme of the event. (:
i'm praying she won't get it right before it hits the first of november. HAHA.
the word given today was: neerscpe.
LOLS. happy guessing, dearest. i'll update you again tmr. (:

goodbye for now, readers. i'll blog again soon. (:
and dear, although you may be in another land;
we'll always stay by each other k, regardless if it's physically or emotionally. (:
dear, one last say, i love you so much. (: mwah mwah!
smiles, your boyfriends, isham. (:

tragedies, on the first day of semester.

2008-10-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

yesterday, was one of the most hectic days i've ever experienced lately.
had killer intestinal pains, and vomitted at 4 in the morning.
in school, was suffering from really bad stomach aches.
first futsal training since the week before the previous exams started, and it created much of a mixed experience for me.
returned to my goalscoring touch, but vomitted two times during the 'training' session.
i really don't know what's wrong with my body, but i'm sure to take medications.
i hope god will be kind to me tmr. (:
what a 'perfect' gift for our 11th month, but i shan't lament anymore.
it could have been worse.

anw, talking about 11th month..
i would like to wish dearest a Happy 11th Month! (:
just another month to go, yeah?
just 30 more days to flyers. HEHE.

well anyways,
i love you more than any other man loves his spouse/girlfriend/pet/wealth/himself!!
hope it'll be a better day tmr. (:
nights. ily, sl. (:

pictures; part 2!

2008-10-12T15:43:00.007+08:00

when you're in love, the sweetest thing to you is your honey. (:

pictures; part 1!

2008-10-12T14:30:00.013+08:00

pictures, pictures! in random sequence. (:

way back on 25th of september: pre-break fast guys photoshoot.
that's arab street anw. and the graffiti, it's not ours. (:
cam-pimps at work y'all.
very cool spot for a shot! (:
final group photo to cap off a fabulous outing! (:

the girls, over at danial's place.
the guys, in a rainbow of colours. (:
irshad's (bottom right hand, in black) place.
camwhoring over at nurdiniy's.
first group photo of the day! proudly.. at my house. (:

when no one's at home, the lenses and flashes prevails!

that's my latest piece of top, from springfield. (: hot, or not?

my lego-faced nephew nephew. purely adorable, ain't he?

aiman in bro's shades and gloves. (:

birthday! (: eleven month, woohoo!

2008-10-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

hey, halooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo people! i'm back once again. (:
today, or on the 11th specifically, had supersized fun with dearest!
my best birthday celebration of all.. maybe becos i've yet to celebrate any of the past 16. :( lols.
but sure, had lotsa fun with dear.
actually there's never a time i didn't enjoy her company. (:

woke up really early, at 9, cos had to head down to conrad to get my salary voucher signed.
things didn't go too smoothly, and so was just on time to meet dear @ outram mrt.
original plan was lunch at dallas chicken, but it was closed. out of business, i think.
so after much discussion, went to bistro delifrance! (:
salad, potato pratin and steak for lunch, and kiwi diabolo for beverage.
the diabolo was one hell of greatness. right, dear? we'll make our own soon! (:
mized fruit tarts were a perfect sign-off for a sumptious birthday treat!

off to sentosa! (:
got tickets for cineblast and 4d magix!
cineblast was a hell of an experience! super creative, and super profitable for them.
the effects were so real, and the cabin ride was remarkable!
just like an actual rollercoaster ride, minus the blood-in-the-brain and excessive adrenaline rush. but super fantastic still! (:
4d magix was great too, although there are so much to improve.
the storyline was abit crappy, and the effects, apart from the water squirts and gas release, have so much room to be improved on.
still a lovely celebration throughout, and it's all from dear's crack of the brain. (:

long john for dinner!
and our $hopping $pree began after that.
here's the list of today's expenditures:

bistro delifrance: $42
7-eleven : $3.00 (bottled drinks & snacks)
cineblast & 4D magix: $52
sasa: $25 (perfume miniatures, face masks)
long john silver: $10
mark $ spencers: $14 (snacks, chips and shortcake)
forever 21: $18 (sleeveless top)
watsons: $5 (face masks)
giant: $15 (anlene milk for dear's mum)
food republic: $14 (tim sums for dear's mum)

woohoo, wtf. a cool $198 splashed today.
we gotta stop this, please dear.
time to save up, yeah? (:

but anw, million thanks dearest for another wonderful day together.
and for the first time, i forked out so little money.
i feel bad, but nevermind.
i'll do all the forking out of money when it comes to your day, your celebration.
and that'll be like 21 days from now. (:
i promise i'll top the celebration we had today.
happy eleventh month in advance, and happy birthday to me in advance too!

sweetheart, love you so much, alright?
just another month to half of our agreed contract! (:
love you, mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah!
pictures will be uploaded tmr, or the next time i blog again. (:

and people, thanks for allowing me to share my life story.
till then, adios. (:

the comeback kid!

2008-10-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

woooooooooooooooooooooooow! holla back, people!
the wait is finally here, and the reluctance have successfully been overcame.
and here i am, after a month-plus-long hiatus, getting this accounts of mine back in business! (:

fasting month has been another lengthy one, but it has been great nonetheless.
managed to complete the whole month without barriers, although i came across lots of setbacks.
and, managed to meet dearest throughout the month too, although it wasn't every single day.
the endurance of fasting, despite being long and laborous, just creates a perfect mood for...
HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! (:

this year's hari raya seemed short but yet it was another good one, apart from the fact that my green packet collections have suffered a drastic decline.
that reminds us of ongoing wall street crash over in the States. LOLS.
still managed to collect a lil' over 200 bucks, but i'll be keeping aside those cash to save up for dearest's GUESS bag! HAHA.
promised to get her one, so i'm in the process of keeping true to my words.
and hopefully, with a minor contribution from my pay, i will get a good one, and it'll be a gift for our first anniversary. (: hehe.

i've been out of the house for consecutive days since the first of this month, except for saturday and sunday.
reason being, house visitations for the first three days of raya, and have been meeting up with dear on the rest of the days.
it feels good to venture out of the house once again, but feel a lil' sympathy for mum, cos she's all alone at home. :( her birthday's coming soon, and i'm looking to get her a novel! (:

lately, or on monday to be exact, i had one of the best outings with dearest since a while.
it's a really spontaneous date, but a good one nonetheless!
morning went for sports @ clementi sports hall. played badmintion and table tennis! (:
dearest, sorry for that middle finger i pointed to you! really sorry, yeah?
then headed to suntec! initially wanted to pay for the flyers' tickets, but failed to get a response from them. so went to find aiman's birthday present instead!
it was a whole shopping-spree outing, and it's been long since i spent so much at one go. LOLS.
got two pairs of 2-years-old clothings from fox for aiman, and a stunning-looking short sleeves from springfield for myself. (: dear got her own piece: a trendy green top from fox! (:
total expenditures, including dearest's and meals was $120+.
holy cow, now then i realise it's such a big amount. HAHA. nvm.

went to suntec again on tuesday, this time we really got to pay for the flyer tickets @ centennial tower. (:
flyers for first anniversary, baby! ooooh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeahhhhhhhhhh! haha.

wednesday, went for hari raya outing with my primary school mates!
it's great to see a huge number of people present, especially when there were last minute changes the night before.
wow, a record 23 people present. LOLS.
my house was first on the list, and served them spaghetti on prego mushroom pasta sauce and spicy-hot chicken wings, alongside f&n orange. (:
over-2 hours-stay here, before moving off to mai's and nurdiniy's.
then off to irshad's, shikin's, hidayat's, nurdinah's, danial's and lastly fauzi's. (:
enjoyed the outing really much, especially when dear didn't give me any problems at all.
she trusts me, after all. haha!
took lotsa group photos! i'll be uploading them later. (:

anyway, anyway, anyway!
i'm so looking forward to saturday!
yes, yes! my birthday celebration! hehe.
it'll be a special meal at dallas chicken's, before a special Sentosa trip oraganised by dear!
so excited lah, haha. (: i'll need to plan a good one for dear's birthday and first year celebration to top the one she'll be organizing this saturday.
i'll be turning 17 soon also, in a week's time. (: cool, cool. lols.

till then, i guess. i'll update again this saturday, alright? (:
take care, people.. for now. (:

ps: my brothers are camwhores too, i didn't know.
and i followed suit, dumb. lols.
pictures to be put up soon! (:

lastly.. dearest, after a month, i'm putting this up again.
i simply love you so much! (: (:

recap

2008-08-27T23:25:00.013+08:00

lols. people, people! this entry is fresh from the oven dated on 1st september.
the date displayed was when i first started this entry. and it's so long, that i have to delay the posting. so yeah, just take it that it's posted on the 1st of september. (:

wow, it's been a while since i've blog. lols.
guess i'll just do recap-ping over and over again, cos sometimes i arrive to a point when i'm totally reluctant to blog. haha.
so yeah, i'll recap on my daily accounts over the past three days!
starting from..

25th August - MONDAY!

the day started off brightly, with me reaching EARLIER for once.
agreed to meet at 9, but arrived ten minutes off the mark.
waited for dearest over at the busstop, and headed off to the coffeshop for breakfast!
breakfast was damn hilarious, cos one serving of the breakfast set was shared between me and dear.
all thanks to the uncle, who couldn't comprehend my initial order.
eventually, i made dearest eat 4 half-boiled eggs in total.
serve you right. (:

minutes before the clock hits 10, we made our way to the sports hall.
got ready, all excited, and started playing promptly.
and dumb, we forgot to stretched. and all these aches are the fruits of our negligence.

played badminton for close to two hours,
and god, it feels great to perpire again! come on, it's been awhile since i last shed a sweat!
regained my hitting-the-cock and smashing touches after a lengthy hiatus off the sport.
and before i knew i would, i lost my steam and succumbed to fatigue. LOLS.
lousy, lousy.

once the day reached noon, dear and me were alr preaparing our paddles for another two hours of action over at the table tennis section.
started pretty bad, as we were struggling to serve properly, and ended up looking like fools in a pool of aging professionals scattered among the other four tables.
but in the end, once we got the groove, everything went well.
and we even extended our playing time by an hour. LOLS.

had a minor quarrel, and went to dearest's place.
and off we went to jurong east to get the baking accesories.
man, i swear i hate shopping. i hate, i hate, i hate!
was running late to return home, but still managed to get some keropok lekor for 'dinner'!
nice, nice. crunchy and crispy! (:
that's simply my day. short and sweet, but fun-filled!

26th August - TUESDAY!

wow, had real fun baking at dearest's place!
my first ever baking experiece! although tiring, i gained some really useful skills.
but the most draining process was.. to stir the egg white!
damn, damn f-ing laborious, and this is just one of the reasons why i'm not compatible with anything related to cakes, or rather, baking. (:

complaints aside, the cake was a success.
and i was glad i played a part in it. HEHE. (:

then went to PRAWN!
another 26 bucks off our pockets.
was great fun, but the outcome.. only three prawns! so pathetic, felt like shit.
just when we thought we'd call it a day with three prawns, the i'm-very-envious-of uncle approached us, and offered us ALL of his catch! all fifteen of them, i think.
wow, such a nice man! god bless your generosity, grandpa.
it felt quite awkward lah, it's like the champion granting a soreloser his much-coveted trophy. LOLS.

it doesn't matter eventually, cos dear's mum decided to dispose all of them off.
such a waste, but it's okay.
no more prawning. (:

27th August - WEDNESDAY!

sentosa! yeah yeah, sentosa!
it was one of the days that i've been eyeing in my vacation calendar!

met dearest in the morning at vivocity, or specifically, GIANT SUPERMARKET!
was late, like always.
initally wanted to get mats at daiso, but dear told me it was still closed.
so went to GIANT for alternatives.
got this foam mat @ $3.99 each, and got two of them. i paid for them!
bought our food supply, and dear sponsored the costs. so nice! (:

what seemed to be a promising day turned ugly.
like the previous time, it rained. hell it rained.
guess it's the raining season, but was stubbornly hoping the rain won't fall.
at least, caught a short glimpse of the sun. managed to suntan a lil'.
hid under that multi-purpose hall while it rained, and played a lil' soccer.
and like always, there was room for quarrels. okay okay, now i admit it's my fault. LOLS.
once the quarrel dissolved, went back to soccer, before we had our eating-spree.

ate super lots, ranging over different kind of food! here's the list.
porridge for breakfast,
prawn crackers, ear biscuit, calbee hot & spicy as our munching snacks,
tap water, h2o to keep us hydtrated over at sentosa,
yong tau fuu for dinner
ben&jerry's cookie cheesecake and black raspberry yoghurt for dessert,
raspberry tea for post-dinner drink,
and finally, had mark&spencers' dutch shortcake in the bus home. (:

dear's got a reason to be happy; she's ended her long-search for kinder surprise. (:
fasting's month fast approaching, time to get fit and back on track!!

28th August - THURSDAY!

didn't meet dearest.
spent the whole day at home.
cleared my soon-to-be thrown-away study table, and discovered the good old things from the past.
took a while going thru my photo collection; saw my baby photo, my kindergarten graduation pictures, and lots of my self portraits!
didn't realise i was alr hot since last time. LOLS.

tidied up the house, and caught up with brother Is alot about his alaska trip.
cool, i want to be there!

for the first time in my life, i felt lost in my own house.
with the renovation taking place, i had to shift everything.
and things are no longer where it used to be. i hate changes, i swear!

i feel like i'm in the sitcom extreme makeover.
my room's in for a major change. okay lah, not too major. but it doesn't feels like my room anymore.
optimistically, changes can be good sometimes. (:

i'll upload images of my room once it's done with all the sofa delivery and all. (:

29th August - FRIDAY!

early teachers' day celebration, so headed down to TANGLIN!
had a chaotic night the day before. last-minute preparations for teachers' gift which ended in failure. at least, i managed to prepare the flowers. save my blushes; i didn't come empty-handed.

met dearest in the morning. agreed to have breakfast over at ayer rajah, but i arrived late!
what's with me, late asshole.
dear was so hot in her white blouse and long skirt. no kidding, her sight just couldn't get out of my head.
sat at the hall for awhile, to catch glimpses of the celebration.
quite crap.

came across all the teachers; it brings back all the good memories once again.
feels like tears gonna trickle down soon. man, i miss those good ol' days!
the best line i heard of the day was from ms. solastri, "hey, hey. look at that guy over there. he's put on alot of weight", referring to me.
yeah, yeah. it's all clear to see. i'm growing cheeks. wtf.
LOLS.

toured around school to find teachers, but i could only manage to give four of the eight flowers i had prepared.
missed out on ms. chu, mr. teo, ms. leong and mr. wan.

spent majority of my time over at the canteen, with the rest of four-e-ones.
thomas, tudor, joshua, clement, mikhail, noel, darren, nadirah, yuping, wanru, purdey, judith, cabrina, ling feng, felicia, kamrun, hamimah, jingying, xiu ting were there.

wrote a note for mrs. koh, part of the class's gigantic surprise for our form teacher.
wanted to write a template message for all the teachers, but didn't have time to make the cards.
so, too bad. maybe next year. LOLS.

after prayers, went for wall-e!!!
i had alr wanted to watch this movie when i first saw the trailer way back in february, while working at carrefour.
and the half-year wait was all worth it.
started out quite slow and boring, but overall it was hilarious!
a sure must-go! tickets only at $6 for students, so i recommend this movie. (:
my ratings: 4/5.

loitered around jurong east with all of them, planning for our vacation class chalet.
i think it's doom to fail. but still looking forward to the one-night stay. HAHA.

stomach was grumbling, so went for a meal!
was indecisive like always, but ended up at spagetti too again!
the baked rice is ommmmmmmmmph, awesome! (:

walked a lil', and sent dear home.
that's the beginning of my weekend. (:

30th August - Saturday!

Family day. went to abc brickworks @ queensway for breakfast.
had black pepper chicken rice. couldn't finish though.
went to fix my contacts, it's way past it's expiry date. LOLS.

went to ikea! final visit there before hari raya.
booked a very cool sofa-bed at just $199, plus a simple wooden table to finish the room set-up.
i'm so excited to get my room done! (:

in the afternoon, went for soccer with bro Is at boonlay sec!
the pitch was wet, and i returned to the field after a long 6 months on the sidelines.
and so, that spells H-E-L-L.
i couldn't keep up with the tempo of the game, cos was constantly out of breath.
had few chances to scored though, but netted none.
final score read 4-2, but not to my favour. hais.
looking forward to futsal training, miss the court. (: LOLS.

after prayers, went to yungsheng foodcourt for dinner.
that was where we found a lost hp. and as good samaritans, we returned it back to the owner.
(:

31st August - SUNDAY!

madrasah in the morning, and out with dearest after that.
had a bad, bad x 18750 quarrel. i felt useless, embarassed.
but things were bound to get normal, and it did.

lunched at macd's, my final meal with dear before the fasting month!
shared my childhood photos with dear, and commented alot.
i look really different from how i use to be. LOLS. people change. (:

then lepak-ed at jurong greens, the place where all happy memories were stored at.
had cornetto, and played heart attack. damn lame, but fun anyway. HAHA.

took tons of photos, and it feels great to look hot once again. LOLS!
a great 'final' day with dearest, and i'm sure after the promises made, i'll get thru this fasting period with total ease.

(:

dearest, everything's gonna be fine okay?
you have to keep your promises orh, if not i'll have a hard time over the next 29 days.
today was a good start, at least we're able to cope with each other's absence.
just get thru this one month and then we'll enjoy the rest of the eleven, alright?
maybe it is a good thing after all, maybe our infrequent meetings will make us appreciate each other more.
only god knows.
time for you to get on with life wihtout me temporarily.
but i'll appear back in your life once every two days, yeah? lols.
remember, i'll meet you on alternate days. (:
let's skip the obvious, definitely i'll miss going out with you and spending my day doing nothing with you.
but this period of time is bound to take place once every year in the hijr calendar.
hope you'll understand, dearest.

a big feast awaits you once it hits past first october.
so stay excited k?
we'll enjoy life after that.
i have lotsa plans for us. and like you know me, i have tons up my sleeves.
so set that as a motivation to get us thru. (:

hey lady, i love you like i've always did, and like i always do.
loves, my dear sweetheart. (:

my great two days!

2008-08-23T12:58:00.004+08:00

pheeeeeeeeeeeew! the past two days was a hella great!

spent so much time with dearest, and did lotsa things! (:

and i'm damn damn glad that next week will be a continuation of a brilliant string of outings with dearest! (:

okay, let's do a recap of thursday and friday!

21st August - Thursday

a day meant for our belated 9th month celebration, and hell it went with distinctions.

but my day started off with a wrong footing; i took trouble to all lengths, but i still couldn't get the collage printed.

darn, darn!

felt so damn bad, cos i initially wanted to surprise dear with a laminated piece of it.

just not my day maybe. :(

so after wasting an hour at jurong east, i got on the train and went off to jurong point!

felt a lil' kiasu, cos bought a 7pm show at 1 in the afternoon. LOLS.

well, was afraid that tickets would run dry quick, so yeah.

got two tickets for 4bia, and the price was a lil' off my expectation,

maybe cos it was the day of release. (:

got home, took a lil' rest.. and within an hour, left home for ngee ann poly!

promised dearest to 'pick' her up, and so stayed true to my words.

kinda miss school though, and was so tempted to play futsal!

but i wasn't in the right attire.

settled down at cheers, and waited.. for a lil' over half an hour.

i was already a lil' agitated by then, cos we were behind time.

but everything went our way after that, and the bus ride was damn short.

so we got ahead of time schedule due to that. (:

had our meal at spagetti too! man, man. reasonably cheap, and reasonably delicious!

readers, you should check that place out! recommended! (: bill was $22++.

certified halal, no worries.

i had breaded chicken bake-d rice, and dear had shredded chicken pasta!

the bake-d rice was cheesefully yummy, and pasta was mouth-watering!

the strawberry milkshake is a must-try! blended ice-cream, just like swensens'!

and not to forget, we capped off our meal with a i-want-to-forget shredded chicken pizza!

man, it's so filling and so chickenful that i got jelak of it!

ate four slices, thanks to dearest's insistence. HAHA.

rushed our way through the crowd and off we went to jp!

we were early, and it was the first time ever that we entered the cinema as the first few.

you see, usually, we are the latest. either went the adverts are alr on, or when the movie has kicked off. LOLS.

kinda eerie though, cos we were about to watch a horror and people were streaming in slowly.

was expecting a huge crowd, but only half of the seats were occupied. eerie!

no lah, actually i was the timid one. hehe.

4bia is a well-structured movie not suitable for the faint-hearted, definitely. LOLS.

even me, as brave as i could be, showed glimpse of timidness. screamed thru the cinema during one of the scenes inside the airplane.

i could tell dearest was more terrified, she was closing her face most of the time.

man, i would rate this movie highly in my books.

it wasn't a pleasure, it was more of a torment watching the characters behind the screen.

it didn't fail to make the atmosphere intense, with pulses of horror every single moment.

sure i love it. (: but we vowed no more of any horror films. LOLS.

interesting experience.

go watch it okay, everyone? not to be missed.

movie ended at around 9.30, and fetched dear home.

all around it was a wonderful day, just that i was stained with paranoia thruout the night. LOLS!

22nd August - Friday

planned for a revisit buffet lunch at hei sushi @ downtown east, but fated not to.

dear had no appetite for sushi, while i was reluctant to travel so far.

so yeah, ended up at dearest's area, and went for friday prayers at As-syakirin. (:

left for clementi; a new beginning to our business adventure.

scouted for outfits, and got a few appealing ones.

walked about, and had lunch over at the coffeeshop just opposite sumo house.

and yes, had our new-favourite rojak!

was a lil' expensive, but nonetheless, delicious as ever!

went to dearest place after my evening prayers, and watched table tennis bronze playoffs!

li jiawei, although she didn't get any medals, she showed glimpses of brilliant world class play!

try again, miss li. (:

spend some time switching around the channels, and even dozed off!

couldn't stand the sleepiness, so went home swiftly.

dear was sick, and was worried about her.

but i know she'll be okay.

a great day yet again, cos i got to be with dearest. (:

23rd August - Today

i feel so bored. going to aunt's house later, and i feel so reluctant.

shits man. hais.

simply nothing to blog about today.

monday would be great, i hope.

continous hours of badminton, table tennis, swimming and football.

great, so excited! something to look forward to!

dear, we'll enjoy every moment k? lols.

till then, peeps.

take care.

dearest, you're loved. (:

wait, wait.

last but not least. my collage!

simply brilliant, ain't it?

2008-08-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

ninth month celebration just moments away!
super excited for dear to get over and done with her paper,
and then we'll be off to spaghetti too!
then head down to jp for 4bia!

but first, in the morning, i'll have to leave home to get things done.
firstly, i'll head down to je to get our collage printed! woohoo!
i'm so dead proud of it. (: well at least, i didn't type that one.
it's more effort eh, dear. hehe!

then i'll have to head to jp, to get tickets for the 7.00pm 4bia, just in case it runs out quick,
for you know, tmr's the release.
so yeah, that'll be my day tmr.

2008-08-20T00:04:00.003+08:00

man, oh man! thursday's just 24 hours away.
i'm super excited; it's time to experience enjoyment after such a long time.
holidays here again, finally. (:

my brain's working again!

2008-08-16T23:59:00.004+08:00

woohoo, i've got all my plans sorted out.
9th month celebration will be off a simple one,
meal-venue will be spaghetti-too;
oh god, it's been long since the last time. three months ago, to be exact.
then we'll be off to the cinema? gonna catch four-bia.

four-bia; a spoonful of horror with a pinch of humour.
heard it's quite appealing and offers something new.
what more can you expect, four horror tales back-to-back.
sounds coooooool? but it's only available in shaw cinema.
so yeah, most probably heading to JEC, again..
LOLS.

then friday! weekly prayers at al-istighfar mosque over at pasir ris!
dearest would have to wait for me.
once the clock hits three, we would most likely be settled at hei sushi!
a revisit, hell yeah!
a return to meet my best friend, fried hotate! wooooohoooo!
HAHA.
man oh man, holidays holidays.
gotta make the best out of the nine days in between the end of dearest's examinations and the start of ramadhan. (: (: (:
dear, be excited! hehe.

saturday, maybe a hiatus?
cos i'll be heading down to my aunt's place for a gathering.
so-not looking forward to it. :(

but hey, hey! on monday, i'll be hitting the ground running once again!
maybe.. we'll have our sports day! hours of badminton, football and.. ping pong, maybe?
man, i can't help but wait. (:

for the rest of the days, a lot of other exciting activities will be in store!
the fish spa, sentosa and prawning!
hehehehehehe, i'm so high now.
can't wait for the coming week.

well for now, just a lil' concentration on my last remaining paper, the killer ENGMEC!
arrrrghhh, i have no confidence at all.
but too bad, life has got to go on.
and like i've always told dearest; to overcome your fears, you have to face it.
so here i am, preparing for that one final obstacle!
a carrot at the end of the race, baby!
a whole exciting week with dearest!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

till then, i'll be off on a hiatus for awhile, i guess.
cos i see my life stagnating for the next few days. LOLS.
so yeah, wish me a million lucks for my final paper, people. (:
and god will bless you millions back. (:

goodie-nights!
till you read again.

loves to my dearest chua shilin;
million loves, indeed.

new chapter. (:

2008-08-14T23:47:00.002+08:00

Allah gave me one final chance today,
a chance for me to repent and rectify my mistakes.
and i'm taking it with open arms, and i'm keen to make full use of it.

i'm down with gratefulness, today was an excellent start.
and i'm hoping it'll stay that way.
i feel refreshed, i feel anew.
it'll be a new beginning with dearest.

long gone all those days, and here i am,
on the ninth month of my relationship,
vowing to change my forgettable habits, disgusting lifestyle.

a different isham, dearest. HEHE.
i love you always. (:

the fourteenth!

2008-08-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

woooooooooooohooooo, fourteenth's here again!
and yeappie! it's the ninth month!
seems kinda long, been through lots of rough times together.
but here we are, dear and me, still going strong. (:

one bad thing though, we aren't gonna celebrate today. :(
cos my examination kicks off tomorrow.
but it's okay, 21st august will be of total awesomeness!
though i'm still cracking my head hard, to find ideas.
LOLS.

and so that'll be all for this post.
blog again soon, i guess. get updated! (:

once again, happy ninth month, dearest!
may we continue this till the bitter end!
i love you so much, sweetheart! (:

national day!! pictures. :)

2008-08-10T22:55:00.017+08:00

national day 2008 @ marina bay

the first picture i took, a view of the stage, from my seat.
that's the view, to my right.
the iconic singapore view, to my diagonal right.
the huge floodlight, and the lighting tower, to my diagonal left.
singapore flyer! to my diagonal south-west.

that cloud, that threat which dimmed a perfect occasion.
a scene, relatively similar to independence day film!
the celebration opener, jet-ski display!
cheerleaders on the spotlight, a number hail from NP.
the red lions, gracing through the dim skies.

the HOMEteam motorcycles circling the upper tier.
schools' uniform group marching up the stage.
military defences forming NDP 08!
water display greeting the darkening skies.
smoke; blame it on the fireworks.

wow, singapore. a wonderful island.
20 of the 37 lit-up fish-shaped air balloons.
fullerton and his taller company; the nightlife.
focus's on the skyscrapers.
towers in blackout mode. no lah, just a camera flash mistake.

the neon spotlights did wonders. here, orange.
here, beams of blue. with the automated-erected towers.
orange and purple. awesome!
i certainly like this one, pleases my eyes.
and finally, the best for the last. the finale!

showtime's over.
we were the only ones left in our section.
whoa, a beauty. i've loved water displays since young.
beams of water jetting towards the skies.
the final picture taken of the day, ndp 08. (:

away from the spotlight, dear and me enjoy the flashes!

credits to dear, all the trouble to capture it for me. (:
red lights unleashing its blinding power. sl looks hot in here.
man, i certainly look bad in photos. i'm growing cheeks!
this gotta be one of my best shot. (: love the trembles.

the flyer wants some focus too.
another trembling effect, unintentionally.
this one's a good one too, at least i look kinda good here.
pardon all the spoutings, that's the only way i'm not going to look chubby.
my fav photo of the day! i love dear to bits! (:

national day!!

2008-08-10T17:31:00.005+08:00

man, oh man! i gotta swear, yesterday was the coolest shit ever!
it was NATIONAL DAY, people!
and i was one of the 27,000 witnessing the brilliance of the celebration!
the atmosphere was, whoaaaa, simply astounding!
and so much sweeter, that dearest was there sharing the moment with me. :)
it feels great, to be a single drop in a sea of crimson!

another perfect day began with a meet-up with dearest.
i was late like everytime; man, i'm always a procrastinator.
decided to meet up at 2 initially, but i was still minutes late even when the timing was changed to 2.30.

that's oh-so-'isham. LOLS
man hella, dear was the sexiest red-and-white yesterday. couldn't afford to take my eyes of her. HEHE.

so yeah, began our lenghty journey to marina in bus 97.
dear managed to revise a lil', and besides that, managed to capture pictures of our excited faces!
alighted at marina square, and wandered around, deciding what to have for lunch.
and yes, yes. we were back to pizza hut! it's been months since we had our last couple's delight.
come on, that's the most affordable meal for a special occasion like this.
meat galore for our regular pizza, along with cream of chicken, the six-piece spicy chicken and a glass of pepsi!
total bill was $35+. quite okay. and the funniest part, we couldn't get our card payment for the bill approved. so the lady had to repeat her dialling procedure time & time again. was pretty frightened, cos didn't have much cash with me. LOLS.
but it was all over within minutes. (:

and hey, hey! i had a pleasant surprise while i was engrossed in my pizza!
i had this guy staring through the wall for quite some time.
so i had glances at him, checking out who he was. and man, i even looked at him right in the eye for a few times. but i still couldn't get my recognising-mode right. LOLS.
and hell, it was my own long-time-never-see bestest buddy!
it was noel!
whoa sey, didn't know he's already into the game. he's attached now.
thought he was one who doesn't love, and don't get loved.
it was fabulous to see him again, he's changed pretty much.

okay, back to the topic. dearest and me had decided earlier to be by the stands at 4.45.
and so, had to rush our meal, which we did. everything was already running according to plan.
so we were dashing against the crowd, finding the exit. but...
the 'best' thing that could happen on a rather special day, occurred.
dearest, she broke her slippers. or rather, the strap got detached! LOLS.
what a time, what a time!
thoughts of reaching the stands on time suddenly diminished.
i was more concerned about dear; i know the embarassment she had to shoulder.
i've gone through the same exact scenario.
and i was as ridiculously desperate as dear to get a new pair of footwear.
chey, sounds like i'm picturing myself as a concerned boyfriend. HAHA.
come on, i was, and i am. (:

haha. joke of the day.
at the midst of our running-around-to-get-a-footwear, there was this bridal promoter who flashed a leaflet to me and asked, 'want to get married?'.
i was like laughing my heart out!
wth, dear and me certainly don't look like 20+, are we?
i mean, hey brother, get your customers right.
don't shoot at anyone. the couple behind us were also teenagers man, i can tell. LOLS.

after the huge hoohaa, dearest got a new pair of adorable pumps from Charles & Keith, again.
i have to say, she appeared more attractive with the new one. HEHE.
and then, off we go again! to the marina multi-purpose hall! (:

right from the ticketing entrance, i have to say the celebration was very well-organised.
the security was tight, and the ushers were jovial, greeting us throughout our whole stroll to the hall.
the walk was rather long, as the green sector were close to the other end of the gallery.
took our funpacks, and a copy of 8 days.
saw a number of familiar faces, namely my-long-lost-primary-schoolmate, nafisah; my NP futsal teammate, guan xiong; and my FOC camp leader, denise.

flights of stairs we had to climb, but i was okay with that.
was more worried about dearest, cos she had her new, tight pumps on, which caused her some pain.
got our seat, which promised a good view. the tag on my seat read: 63-67.

the performances were reasonably good. i couldn't clearly remember the sequence of the concert though. but it was good.
but hey. the red lions and the black knights stole the show man!
i come from the aerospace, and sure i was amazed, fascinated, captivated, mesmerized or whatever vocab that comes to your mind, when i was able to witness the acrobat planes in action! woohoo, fantastic!
man, the vertical loops, the heart shape.. i'm in love with planes! LOLS.

finale was superb, with hady and joi closing the celebration with this year's theme song,
SHINE FOR SINGAPORE! (:
performers invaded the platform, as the luminous, sparkly glitters of fireworks lit marina!
leaving thousands and thousands of people in awe, and leaving us in applause after minutes of display.

no, no. the celebration didn't end there.
post-parade party was up next, and it was CLUBBING time!
dj george, of st. james' power station was in the house!
with the speakers letting out pulses of beats, and the likes of apologise, when i grow up, don't stop the music rocking the night, dear and i decided to lepak the emptying gallery.

by the time my seiko watch showed 9.15, we were alr on our way exiting the hall.
walked down to the stretch of road graced by mr. president earlier, and was just metres away from the performing platform.
then came the hassle, finding our way to the nearest bus stop.
eventually took our bus at the suntec convention hall, and the trip back home seemed longer.
maybe cos we took a different bus service, and maybe cos i was suffering stomach aches that i was too yearning to reach home asap. LOLS.

our wonderful outing ended with our routinal nine-kisses, and a huge wave to MY ONE and ONLY singapore-flag-like sweetheart!
man, i love her so much!
and it's always lovely to bring her to special occasions.
her excitement and enthusiasm would always get me in the right mood.
another perfect outing, another remarkable piece of reminiscence into our memory. (:

next up, our 9th month celebration!
i'm still in a state of cracking-up-my-brain, clueless of where we'd be heading to spend our time.
but don't worry, dear. just know that it'll be a great one, like always. (:

i love you always, darling. (:

what, what?! NDP!

2008-08-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

whoa. i haven't been blogging for so long!
the final post was like a week ago, and that was even an entry that dear posted for me.
she's damn smart, she broke into my blogger account.
naughty, naughty. LOLS.

okay, okay. everything aside.
chalet plans were a total failure.
but hey, at least we've got sth to cheer about right, dearest? hehe.

it'll be my first live NATIONAL DAY PARADE!
woohoo, damn high. damn excited!
and it'll be with dear, so much to make the occasion sweeter!
hehe.
one dilemma though, i'm lacking of ideas.
and also, lacking of clothes to wear there.
HAIS. nothing in my wardrobe matches.
but it's okay, 4 more days to crack my head.
so yeah, hoping it'll be one hell of a great day!
till then, take care everyone. (:

loves, dearest.

What a day

2008-07-31T11:57:00.002+08:00

I got into a fight with a guy, dearest knows who.
Afterwhich it left me with 2 dark circles.
I don't know if i am doing the right thing.

On a lighter note, i got to meet dearest yesterday.
Something i've always been looking forward.
But.. i made her sad.
I played soccer without proper shoes and now,
it left me with a huge blister. The pus is oozing out of the wound now.

Dearest dont seem to care about me anymore.
But i still love her very very very much
Aku Cinta PadaKu!

the past fourteen days

2008-07-26T19:01:00.002+08:00

hey readers! i'm back to blogging!
after a long week of hiatus, i've decided to spend some time here.
okay okay. to start things off, let me summarize my past two weeks!

on the 16th of july, which fell on a wednesday, i skipped training once again!
it was initially planned that i was to accompany my mum to welcome my dad back from java, but my day ended up with having a meal with dearest over at Mr. Prata @ Clementi!
had my first taste of banana prata, and dear, tasted her first sip of teh tarik!
total bill was reasonable, ten bucks for a serving of chicken murtabak, banana prata, teh tarik and a can of ice lemon tea!
off we go, to the central, where i had wanted to find the jacket that i was longing for.
but hey, luck wasn't on my side. :(

the next day, on the 17th, dear and me went to comb the whole of chinese & japanese garden, in search for lakeside fishing village.
had bits of quarrels here and there, mainly cos i appeared to be very hesitant.
come on, i wasn't attired properly, so pardon me. LOLS.
that was long over.

but who cares.
the best thing of the week, took place on friday!
this time, we had planned this outing a day earlier.
and so, i was attired well in my 'sports' attire; very suitable to go PRAWNING! (:
hehe.
and yes, we found the correct location this time. (:
sorry mates, i took no pictures.
but sure it was damn, damn, damn fun!
i wanna go again!
although it may seem pathetic, but three catches for our first experience ain't that bad right, dearest? HAHA.
no worries, we'll catch more next time. and hopefully by then, i won't be afraid of getting the prawns off the hook anymore. HEHE. (:

for the following monday, on the 21st, futsal training was cancelled.
actually, i forgot what happened on that day. LOLS.

okay, skip that.
tuesday and wednesday promised much more fun, and sure i enjoyed myself!
it was the street netball competition!
yes, yes. after much reluctance, i decided to join. dearest's persuasion really moved me. LOLS.
had my first experience of competitive netball, and sure i sucked big time.
i was relatively short compared to the other guys, and i couldn't shoot a hoop for nuts!
i felt like a big loser. but hey, at least i contributed to the team, somehow. (:
and hey, dearest met aiman for the first time, and he salam-ed her!
HAHA!

thursday, it was chaotic.
had a blocked nose and slight cough in the morning, but i didn't expect anything serious to occur.
first half of school was averagely fine, not until after my 12pm break.
i felt terribly cold, but blamed it all on the aircon.
i thought i was fine. but after school, things turned ugly.
my limbs were having flickers of aches, and my body boiled hot.
even as i went to the toilet, i could see my eyes turning bloodshot, and the eyerings transformed into a pool of crimson.
i felt horribly weak; all my appetite's gone.
but hey, the good thing about it, i saw dear's real concern about me.
she cried, and i teared too, in pain.
pain of the heat of my raging body temperature, and also the pain of making her weep.
the rest of the night was better. (:

friday, the 25th.
i didn't attend school.
my body temperature hit a high, at 39.1 degrees.
went to the doc, and got myself 6 mini-ziplocs of medication.
skipped friday prayers, as i was too lethargic.
but after the deserved rest, i felt so much better.
good enough for me to get out of the house to meet dearest!
went for a simple meal at the teban market, and then went of to send her home.
it's nice to see dear's smile again. (:

today was of total monotonous-ism.
did nothing, but to help dad run errands, and to eat.
lols.

can't wait for tmr!
i'm gonna see chua shilin again.
so yay!
i'll update my daily accounts again next time.
take care people.
and i love you, my only sweetheart. (:

2008-07-24T20:20:00.002+08:00

I'm all red now.
would any dragon reach this striking of red-ness, i bet he would have blasted his thunderbolt of fire.
man, i don't feel fine.
i feel heavy, i felt piping hot internally.
i hope everything will be fine, soon.

woohoo, my familt's so concern about me!
my bro has touched me enough by offering to bring me to the clinic. (:
and mum, for offering a massage!
and dad, for planning out about my medical proedure. lols.

AND thanks so much, dear.
for your endless care just now.
and all my apologies for making you tear.
but i promise to be strong k?
don't worry about me.
i'll be back and running soon. (:
you're the sweetest ever, and best ever!
ee. mashi isham again.
who cares.
i love you so much, chua shilin! (:

pictos. part two!

2008-07-16T23:57:00.006+08:00

hey, hey! get ready, guard your throat! cos it's time vanity strikes me!
anw, that's my self-declared photo studio! (:
enjoy, the blessing of god.
dear, hot annot?

and dear. i love you, for tonight. (:
loves, always

mohamo isan.

pictos. part one!

2008-07-16T23:05:00.009+08:00

like i've promised, pictos!

a lil' masterpiece, to commemorate our special day.
the two of us; we proved that interracials can last!
pizza el taglio, they don't offer much variety.
the spicy chicken, the creamy alfredo, and the teriyaki.
the spectacular meals, from my view.

that's our 1-inch thick pizza! and my soda!
el taglio, gorgeous ambience and remarkable settings.
that's the counter; chalk-on-the-blackboard menu.
singapore river; go, going, gone.
clarke quay; imprisoned within the ceiling of the transparent.

central: a structure of the futuristic artistry.
modern technology, for us all.
dear, back to the place where we belong.
even the dark sky failed to dampen us down.
beautiful living things on display. (:

reminiscing the good ol' times.
and that was where, i found princess charming.
same place, same pose. eight months on.
that's a real fake smile. but i have never faked my feelings for her.
best picture of the day, saved for the last.

the day of the fourteenth!

2008-07-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

recounting on that very day; the day of the fourteenth.

as dreadful as any other monday mornings, i managed to fight off lethargy and began my day with a oh-so-refreshing shower!
i promised dear the night before that i would meet her in the morning, and so i did.
met dearest up at her place, and spent some quality time together!
i mean, it was our special day, so yeah, enjoyed each other's company pretty much! hehe.
and the funniest thing that took place was, we were frantically searching for my belonging, for quite some time, when all the while i was wearing it!
so stupid. dear ah dear, so dumb! LOLS!
and that first experience wasn't that bad afterall! HAHA.

and so around noon, we headed off to school!
i was pretty nervous along the way there, cos i was just an hour away from my 1commkit 2-minutes-speech assessment!
man, come on. i've never spoke upon the attention of a reasonable-huge audience. and what's more, i only had fifteen minutes to prepare.
so was kinda panicking!
but hey, but hey!
at the end of it, i realise it wasn't that bad. my nerve cells weren't even a lil' shaken during that 2 minutes and 32 seconds period when i was on the spotlight.
i even, managed to tickle the audiences' laughing bones.
that feeling was great; it only compiled more confidence on me.
the topic i randomly chose was not of a difficult one, it was regarding why i love being a man.
and hey, i started off with 'thank-ing my dad for producing y-chromosomes while fertilizing my mum's ovum'. it was a random idea, i swear. HAHA.
good job, 'isham! (:
actually, dearest contributed some of the topics i discussed about..
so, thanks so much, dearest! (:

the main event of the day, or of the month, only started after school ended!
dear, in her gorgeous grey dress, look beautiful as ever!
and hey, haha. i looked like a rich kid, for once in my life! LOLS.
headed down to clementi from campus, and took train to clarke quay!
that was the place our love, relationship originated from; and that was the same location i found my princess charming. (:
as planned, and promised earlier in the month, dear and i had pizza el taglio for our monthly-unique meal!
i had spicy chicken pasta, while dear had creamy alfredo!
and we had teriyaki chicken rectangular pizza as our side!
offers included, total bill was just a mere 15 bucks! LOLS.
money's no problem, what mattered most was the enjoyment we had. (:

had a tour around the still-under-construction central, and guess what, people?
i bought a new pair of leather slip-ons from d&c! okay lah, cheap cheap. but i'm still very happy!
ask dearest, and you'll know how much i've been longing to have one! HAHA.
i'll post a pic of it later!

so yeah, after some shopping and touring, we set off to that historical place.
yes, yes! to that historical stretch of street that hugs the singapore river!
the place that witnessed our love! haha.
sadly, construction barricades became our only barrier to relive that moment.
but hey, a couple of shilin and isham can never be stopped!
and so, we found another spot along that stretch, ignored all obstructions; just so that we could get ourselves just inches away from the calm water down below.
took plenty, i repeat, PLENTY of photos there!
i'll post them up real soon!

began to manifest our affection, and confess all the love that have long filled my heart up. LOLS.
and hey, hey. we spent majority of out time to recite, rehearse and record a chinese song!
well i guess, it has fast became our love anthem! haha.
i'm rapidly picking up mandarin, much to dear's and my delight. (:

it was such a marvellous feeling to return to where we first came from, and sure it was nothing but tranquility and calmness that filled the atmosphere.
clarkey! we'll return again someday, i promise.
and by that time, dear, i promise i'll utter those mushy-yet-romantic-cum-tremendous like i did before, and thus, re-vowing my faith and love in you. (:

another god day, another perfect outing!
eight months gone, and still so much more to come!
i've said this in the first month, and i'll say it again..
dear, stay excited. cos i still have lots more up my sleeve!
haha.

i love you so, sweetheart! (:

maiden gold!

2008-07-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

regards to all readers!
okay, hmm. in this entry, i'll recount my marvellous weekend, while all the occurences on the day of my eight month with my dear girl will be typed down on the following post.

saturday's futsal myspex finals was the greatest moment in recent football memories.
maybe it was because it's been long since i played in a fully-packed arena.
the atmosphere was brilliant; cheerings and the loud, thumping music filled the air.
the long-anticipated battle was at the brink of its commencement, after long hours of a teenagers-related forum occupied the earlier part of the occasion.

i was pretty nervous, but was all fired up to perform to the highest level possible.
and again, the atmosphere was all-so-lovely, and that sure do motivated me alot.
clad in the whites of adidas, my fellow teammates and i did personal stretchings.
we were more relaxed, i guess, as compared to our adversary.
they did some proper warm-ups, while us; we were more engrossed in the 3rd & 4th placing match between darussalam and siglap.
but yeah, like tom said, we had that mental advantage, for our players are more physically built.

and yeah, the match went according to our plan and tactics.
azim got that early goal, and that sure shot our opponents down, psychologically.
just seconds after the kick-off, azim went for a real gamble to have a blast, and that lil' gamble transformed into a goal!
the second goal was of a carbon copy. with azim havign another thunderous shot from distant.
the third was of pure masterpiece, with over twenty passes achieved before adi clipped onto tom's pin-point cross from outside the curve.
and hehe, i got my name into the scoresheet too! courtesy of a purely fortunate cross that ended at the back of the net. HAHA.
it was magnificient at the final whistle, and it was one-hell-of a feeling getting my hands to the gold trophy.

met dearest after the annual jamboree, amd hit down for a meal at macs!
it's been quite a while since we had one, and being at the exact location of our first meal ever together made the mealtime more special.
you know, it's always sweet to recall the good ol' times. (:

went for a lil' random shopping, and dear got herself three pieces of outwear.
and one of them, wtf, i loved it alot! okay lah, jealousy admitted!
the jacket was damn cool, with monkey designs all over! and dear got it at a total bargain of just $10. wth, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
HAHA.

lacking of plans, we headed to imm, to get myself an outfit for our 8th month outing.
went to every corners, but failed to get any.
okay, i'll admit that i had lil' money, that was why no clothes could fit within my budget.
so decided to crack my brains, and emerged with an idea to mix and match my existing clothes.
and it sure paid off. HAHA.

so that's my saturday for you; sunday was very quite uneventful, apart from the fact that i accompanied dear to get herself a pair of shoes that would suit her dress, which she wore for our 8th month. (:

anw, good news or a bad news, i'll only resume my entry about the 8th month celebration tmr.
so stay tuned!
LOLS.
nights people, goodnight dearest. (:

2008-07-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

hey, good night!
a lil' shout-out to my girl, who was totally sweet-tempered enough to kill off hours after hours, every day, just to wait till the clock strikes five, signalling the end of my lessons.
a big thank you, dear.
all that huge, minor and those tiny bits of sacrifices; i appreciate them all. (:
it feels so good being able to meet you everyday. hehe.

i'm so excited for the finals.
don't worry dear, i'll bring a good news back home. (:

so anyway, had a lenghty conversation with the detective group.
solving a case, a very stupid one.
updates tmr. (:

oh wait. dearest, i love you!

saturdays' fun! yesterday's misery!

2008-07-11T09:37:00.004+08:00

woohoo, i'm so damn excited!
the long-awaited futsal finals is will kick off within the next 24 hours!
hopefully, i can attain my maiden trophy after such a long time dressed in the white of the tenterah mosque.
winners' trophy! here i come!
(:

wait, wait! my exhilaration doesn't stop there!
just one week from now, dear and me will be going on a fishing trip!
okay lah. not for fishes, not for hookers. but for prawns!
sounds funny, but if it's total fun that awaits me, then i'm oh-so-definitely going to do it!
woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
LOLS.

well anyway, something real bad just happened yesterday, in class.
nah, nothing about me. it's my classmate; my foe, to be exact.
and it's been long since i wanna spurt this out in his face.

all this while, i withstood all your crap, amigo.
your words were all of no truth, it's oh-so-plain-bullshit.
i just don't know why i despise you so much, maybe cos i'm simply disgusted by your fibs.
and hey, the funniest thing is, you had something to prove to us guys someday.
was yesterday that 'someday', and that immoral deed that one thing you wanted to prove?
hey brother, wake up to your senses.
it's time to change, you've got no friends.
time to repent, amigo.

the good, the bad, and the ugly!

2008-07-08T23:29:00.004+08:00

the loss of my white nike band, the loss of my scoring touch, maybe?
that seemed to be the way it is going to be yesterday.
a bad start to the training, scoring only a few goals. and a sprained ankle.
totally disappointing.
genuine appreciation comes only after a loss.

today was so much of a better day.
school was short, or at least, it appeared to be. LOLS.
when the day looks to reach perfection, there's always something bad occuring every day.
and today, my pair of slippers obeyed its fate.
my favourite pair, only because it's the only set i have, got spoilt.
all thanks to azzrul, but he was quick to amend his mistakes, by purchasing me a new pair.
HAHA. thanks azzrul!

and yeah, main event of the day.
nothing much. just a simple meal with dear!
i love it whenever we travel to the west coast and clementi area.
it just makes me feel home, and brings back alot of memories.
well come on, i've been my region of residence for the past 12 years.
LOLS.

had a great shock when i learnt that my mum was at the same foodcourt too!
i wouldn't want her to know that i was with dearest, cos i'm afraid she might get furious, or get frustrated, given the health condition she is in now.
so had lil' running around trying to avoid her sight.

and yeah, yeah!
had western food for lunch! quite a budget meal. (:
i had the bbq chicken wing set, while dear had fish and chips!
and dear pointed out sth. for something that we could get for just $5, we got it at thrice the price at swensens'. LOLS.
now i'm feeling the pinch of regret for frittering my cash away unnecessarily.
the meal was great. impressive remarks on the bread-crumbed fish cutlet and the tanned, tender chicken wings.
dearest must have enjoyed her meal. (:

man.. i don't know whether i'm too hot, or i'm too irresistable for some eyes,
but i've been stared at for almost the whole of my journey to shilin's place.
it's so freaky, but i'm super grateful that god have blessed me with these looks of mine.

bought banana milk and longan for our usual lepak session!
seats at the cc totally booked, so we decided to head down to a playground just across the street.
and damn, i'm sure i had a good time just now.
playing the modernised see-saw with dear, swinging our way to laughters and meaningful quality time. (:
i sure love her damn lots!

ohhhh... ohhhh.. fuck..
i can't help but to say this, but dear was totally super-duper, fantastically hot!
with her blouse, inner tube and denim jeans. wow! extremely gorgeous.
and her smiles melt me like always.
she never fails to turn me on. LOLS.
kidding lah. haha.

hey, i'm consistently yawning right now.
guess i have to go.
good night! (:

this is for dear.
stay pretty, stay gorgeous, stay loving, and stay mine forever!
i love you, sweetheart.

hortpark, baby!

2008-07-05T23:07:00.004+08:00

yay, yay!
my first entry since that horrendous 'potential break-up' incident.
let's not elaborate; it'll only bring the nightmare haunting back again.
three days gone, and things have been better than ever!
maybe we're starting to see the light, to appreciate each other better. (:
they said, 'it's only after you become friends with death, that you will appreciate life'.

so yeah, every single of the past three days have been great, apart from being penniless though.
no money, all misery.
and who says money don't bring happiness; it does okay.
only people under this state of mine will understand.

weekend's here, and there i go going out for dates!
budget date, but was still fantastic!
fortunately training have been permanently shifted to wednesday, if not i won't have any chance to go out on dates on saturdays.

and yes, yes, yes!
today, dear and me went to check out the coolest-latest-shit in town,
the much talked-about HORTPARK!
no worries, readers. pictures will be updated asap. (:

the most recent production of NEA, hortpark covers over 23 ha, linking the telok blangah/mount faber park with the 43 ha kent ridge park, all the way to west coast park!

alighting at the stop after alexandra road, with the raindrops dutifully falling along the pull of gravity, we were greeted by the mammoth hortpark signature-bridge, that links the suspension bridge leading to telok blangah park to the entrance of the hortpark.
man, i sure love the architecture and landscaping of the whole park settings!

going down the slopes, we bumped into a world of colours!
the gorgeous violet of the morning glories, the striking red of the hibiscus, and so much more other flowers that appeal the eyes.
i wasn't really interested though; i was struck in awe looking at this ridiculous-designed building which functioned as a shelter.
but looking back again, i realised that it was only the beginning of what to come.
what awaited me ahead were of pure brilliance; creativeness executed to perfection.
descriptions are beyond words, only illustrations could tell. (:
head down for yourself, to feel that fascination.

heading up ahead, we faced a huge predicament.
dear and me had two choices, to turn back down to the hortpark entrance, or to resume our 'greenery-tour' with a long 4.5km kent ridge park lying ahead.
the intelligent would choose the former, but the curious will choose the latter.
and the saying 'curiousity kills the cat' sure hits the spot this time.

despite the blazing heat coming for above, we, or me in fact, tried to stretch our limits.
we welcomed the challenge with no hesitance.
but it was a hellish journey i didn't see coming.
we crumbled, pleading for mercy, and praying for an escape route to get us out of our doldrum.
it was a lengthy expedition; i could feel a migrant's torment marching across the sahara.
a lil' exeggerating, but still.. HAHA.

with our hearts desperate for the end, and our throats desperate for water,
we found our escape.
and luckily, i'm able to read maps. (:
i felt relieved, but that wasn't the best feeling though.
i saved the best moment for the last.
i accomplished something today, for the first time.
that is, to carry dearest!
not much of a big deal, but it felt so good!
you know, for her to complement my strength and sweetness.
chey. LOLS!

no doubt, today's encounter was all about trust, faith, dependence and romance!
for us to hold on to each other thruout the tough times, for one to encourage the other, and for us to be isolated in a place of unknown, just the two of us.
but hey, don't worry. i didn't do anything naughty.
just get me right, being alone with your partner, and devoting all attentions to him/her.
that's the greatest feeling. (:

rightfully gaining our freedom after the unforgettable experience across kent-ridge park,
we promptly headed down to clementi for our meal!
mee soto and plum juice had never tasted any better. LOLS.
the rest of the time were of usual-ness; swallowing down sundaes from mac'd, gulping the lemon honey down my oesophagus, mucnhing the sticks of prawn crackers, while getting distracted by the wushu practice when i was suppose to study. (:

it was a great day, another great discovery.
i'm hoping to find new places for our weekly budget date.
anyone out there, with any suggestions, please inform me. (:
haha.

i so love today, and i so love my girlfriend.
you're the ever best. (:

nights, people.
and one last bad news, i lost my white nike band. :(
but i still have to be grateful i didn't lost dear three days ago. :)

SHILIN!

2008-07-03T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hi there, this is Chua Shi Lin!
I'm bored. so i've decided to intrude 'Isham's privacy.
HEHEHEHEHE. evil like ever.
I MISS 'ISHAM I MISS 'ISHAM!

READ THIS 'ISHAM!

it's my turn to say!
我很爱很爱你！
i love you v much!

the best shit ever. (:

2008-07-01T00:30:00.003+08:00

yeah, yeah! back on to blogging.
have been pretty busy lately. coming home late at night, and subsequently have no time at all to blog.
so since i'm viewing my mel, why not, spend a lil' time to blog this entry.
dearest have been bugging me to blog, with i was a lil' hesitant to.
haha.

so yeah. hands down, i had the best futsal training session today!
regaining my touch to put the balls into the nets, and increasingly becoming a cool-head under highly-pressurizing scenarios.
i'm so proud, i've been labelled as torres.. by my seniors.
that's all due to me ability as a targetman. (:

started training with a casual shooting session. and yes, woohoo!, i'm able to blast rockets like i used to. i'm so upbeat!
coming to serious training, had lil' stretching with maksim as our instructor.
went for a short jog from the court over to the field, ran one track and back.
saw dear, hehe. i smiled at her, but doubt she saw it. lols.
then did the ladder drill, before had ball-control practice around the cones.
it was then followed by a crappy ball exercise, which needs no elaboration.
next up, had ball possession training. teamed up with adi, farhan and kong siong.
and then, finally, the players were broken down into teams of four, for our usual futsal match. my team consisted of darryl, that wonderful keeper; mike, the ever-cool defender; poh hong, my rocket-blaster senior; and lastly, bama, the skinny but pacey winger.
initially i thought we weren't that strong, but hey, three consecutive matches ain't that bad. (:

i'm so content with myself. i managed to score seven goals in total; dear i recounted again. lols.
i hope this impressive record will remain for long.
the fabulous training session was darkened by the injured i obtained though.
my leg hair was shaved off when i was sliding for the ball, can you believe it.
now it's like a very cool hairless patch on my left shin. lols.
had a lil cramp, which still aches, as well as a swollen bone a lil' below my knee cap,
which is causing me to limp pitifully.
that's not all.. i'm still having a muscle strain on my right thigh and hamstring.
and my back, the injury nightmare is haunting me back again.
i'm praying that god will be kind to me. (:

putting the disappointments aside, i'm very pleased that i'm back to being myself during training.
i used to be a little timid, a lil' nervous when it comes to training.
now, i can see that contrast. not only hitting the back of the nets *just how many tiems must i say this, haha. guess i'm being a lil' too compacent. but i'm just so proud of it*, but also getting closer to my teammates, knowing them so much more, and also being able to forge a formidable partnership with farhan up front. (:
in short, i'm gradually growing to open myself up.
so glad. hehe.

so yeah, after training, dear waited for me. so sweet of her to offer me some help to pack my stuffs. thanks, dear!
and i was so happy to see her smile!
that's the best thing about her, her smile makes my day. (:
i'm not trying to bootlick or praise her, but you know, that's just the reason why i'm with her. (:
but the best thing of the night was getting that massage from dearest, which i initially refused.
and the most amazing thing was that she insisted and begged me to allow her to.
come on, i mean who would want to offer a massage to others.
even me, i would just forget about it if someone refuses. lols.

and yeah, like mentioned in shilin's blog, we are fast running out of cash!
so we had instant noodles, for supper!
lols.
not the first time though. haha.
you know, even having that cheapskate meal was a pleasure.
we get to communicate. that's quality time, man. (:

so off we went after supper, but definitely before having our routinal nine-kisses!
haha.
coolest shit ever. lols.

dear's sleeping now, and so i am leaving too.
blog again soon!
goodnight. (:

dearest, aku cinta padamu! hehe.
mashi isham, once again. (:

2008-06-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

yay! back on blogger after so long.
last post was on sunday.

so yeah, monday was a total cock-up.
dear and me wanted to unearth more undiscovered places, so randomly took 52 to bishan.
went rounds, and rounds.
okay, this part i have to admit that the fault is all mine.
understand me, i can't consume everything.
and so.. went to SWENSENS', like ever again.
but had something new, which i didn't realise was on the menu all along.
had bbq chicken. a new taste for my buds, but got sick after a while.
luckily there was dear's deep-fried chicken to provide me a different flavour.
it was already late by the end of our dinner, so shopped a lil', and off we went!

tuesday was so much better!
school was kinda short, and got all my test papers back.
time flew very fast, cos maybe i was too busy comparing marks and conversing with my buddies.
had chicken rice for dinner. okay, i'm finally on a budget okay..
then went off to dear's estate.
wanted to kick balls initially, but spent the evening watching movie instead.
and yeah, it was the movie i had always wanted to watch!
it's 'what happened in vegas'!
damn cool lah the show, the settings and stuffs.
the storyline was unique, but ending kinda expected.
i was highly inspired at the end, like always. LOLS.
so yeah, capped off my day with a lil's brotherly time with my third bro. so cool! haha.

yesterday was short too! only 6 hours of school.
okay lah, at least it felt like short.
did nothing but copied common test answers.
watched movies on my lappie again, after school..
the simpsons movie and a lil' bit of borat.
and i shall thank dear for allowing me to transfer those files. (:
after hours of staring at the LCD screen,
i completed a hat-trick, a hat-trick of eating chicken for dinner for three days consecutively.
i've grown alot horizontally, and i guess it's time for more growing of fats!
lols.
on the evening, played footbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal!
dear has improved alot, i observed.
no longer afraid of the ball. (:

wait, one last thing.
i'm absolutely delighted with my results.
but it's just the common test, so i'd better maintain, if not, do better. (:

yeah, yeah. i'm yawning my heart out while blogging this.
so better get some rest.
take care, readers.

dear, ily. (:

2008-06-22T23:49:00.002+08:00

haven't really blogged about anything since the 19th of june.
didn't do anything much on the 20th also, just to the gym with dearest.
to work our muscles out. yeah baby, muscles! lols.

yesterday, on the 21st, met dearest in the afternoon, after her sumptuous meal
at Crystal Jade.
wasn't able to come out with ideas, so we headed down to queensway!
dear wanted to get her backpack, while me, was looking for some shirts.
but in the end, i came home empty-handed.
i'm serious, dearest. whatever you say, is whatever i abide by. (:

so yeah, nothing that much to talk about about yesterday.
but still, i enjoyed my time with dear, especially all the stupid things we did. (:

today was totally different.
i had a great morning, a great tournament!
represented the tentera dirajah mosque, and we got into the finals!
which will take place on the 12th of july. so long from now. hais.
so yeah, it as raining damn badly, and the kick-off was delayed abit.
i was worrying all the time, cos i was afraid it would end later, which means
i will only be able to spend lesser time with dear.
but everything went out well, and reached shilin's workplace by 4.
glad to see her smile upon my arrival. hehe.

had burger king for my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner.
the whopper jr has never tasted so nice, mainly because i was damn starving. lols.
then stayed at dear's cart, while watching 'one more chance'.
great film, but not able to finish the whole runtime.
so yeah, then went to shop after dear was done with her work!
went to cotton on, and i bought two skinny polos.
okay lah, quite ordinary shirts. but it'll only mean i can show more of my muscles. chey!
haha.
and dear purchased two shorts, for $20. (:

so that's my day for the 22th of june, a day before the new term starts.
i've never felt so reluctant before. lols.
maybe cos i haven't done my homework. hehe.
so... i'll rush all the shit now!
let's go, peeps.
goodnight.

dear, another great time with you today.
i love you! (:

sushi, soccer, shilin!

2008-06-21T13:05:00.008+08:00

19th June - swim & soccer day
(only one photo for now)
yeah! girl power, baby!

18th June - Hei Sushi @ Downtown East

(sorry i couldn't rotate the photos, so turn your head at your own pleasure)

the concept really impresses me.
that's towards the kitchen.
the chopped unagi sushi, the sauce is oh-so-good!
chawanmushi, the one that tastes like milk. lols.
my favourite japanese dish, HOTATE!

that's the conveyor belt, my first experience.
dessert of the day, watermelon and sesame mochi!
shilin, and her trademark non-teeth-showing smile.
those are the first tastes of japanese food for me.
spicy salmon handroll! not spicy at all, no kick.

dear munching on her fried tofu.
she looks hot, or maybe just trying to be. hehe.
another random photo.
those are the plates of food that we had, but that was not the final count though.
dear on her c-kway. she ate two pieces and gave me all the rest.

pictos. part two.

2008-06-21T02:10:00.006+08:00

16th June - the singapore zoological garden

lols. apart from the animals, we put aside some time to try out being shot at. (:
hehe. so similar lah. dear and her non-teeth-showing broad smile.
she must be wondering how lonely she would be without me. (: the sun's so bright, adding brilliant effect to the pic. and just at the right time, elepho.
i know i don't have a handsome face, so tried my best not to look at the lens.

that's at the view area, the clouds about to weep.

a candid shot of ms. chua shilin.
taken when i was trying to adjust my lenses, at the diapers-changing room
silhouette of dear during water break @ the hamadryas baboon gallery.
that's the only face i could do to look good. okay lah, to look as if i'm good. hehe.

another random shot. i'm a camwhore, a male one.
i liek this picture best, i look so much taller than dear.
hehe. random, but again, look so much taller.
a close up, the camera has too much empty space.
the first photo taken, apologies for the blurness.

pictos. part one.

2008-06-20T12:20:00.007+08:00

16th June - the singapore zoological garden

a statue, he remained at the same spot thruout my whole 'scaly encounter' trip.

he's really got a big, big nose. just like squidwart's.
so adorable. he came close to the camera just for me, smartie.

the only male lion. up close & personal.

the cute lil' lonely penguin.
is that a pelican? i'm still uncertain about that.
those are the hamadryas baboons. so cute, yet so violent!
the better side of the baboons. they love grooming, it's their way of socialising.
squeeeeeeeeeeeeeek! that's the cuckatoo that shocked me! grr...

the ever-shy leopard, it was tough to get a pic of him. always hiding.
and this is.. the jaguar! looks exactly like a leopard, but the spots are different.
and this is the tree phython. its big eyes itself make it look scary, and dangerous.
hehe. turtle, so cute. it's the biggest in the world!
as giant as an ape can be, he sure can uproot a tree when he's on a rampage.

lamenting the departure of their cousin, the long gone ah meng.
zebras have their fair share of hot asses too!
ostriches are smart, this one actually posed for this shoot.
hungry hungry! mealtime for marco and friends!
the lion and his queen.

those are the otters, the wonderful somersaulters
a replica of a tiger head, looks freaky though.
there she goes, boasting her brawny limbs.
hehe. caught red-handed. if man can have sexual desires, why not animals.
hais, that's the only thing they could do after ah meng went away. :(

swim, swensens', soccer! triple s's.

2008-06-19T23:34:00.004+08:00

after eight lenghty years, i made a comeback.
it's been long since i submerged myself into the chloronated water.
but things didn't go well.
you see, not doing something for the past eight years, it's the same as doing something for the first time.
i had lost my touch.
easier said, i was like a child, struggling to keep myself afloat, and failed to thrust myself forward despite numerous attempts.
okay, okay. i've returned to square one, and it's like i don't know how to swim.
i'm not embarassed to confess. (:

the only thing i enjoyed was the lazy pool! so fun. :)

after the horrible, yet enjoyable experience, planned to head down to the gymnasium,
but was later cancelled.
simply cos we were not in the proper attire; we were in slippers. dumb! haha.
so since i was moaning in hunger, we decided to have our meal!
was mulling over two choices, pizza hut or swensens.
and dear wanted swensens so much, so i agreed.
actually cos i wanted to have an ice cream too, so chose swensens. (:

i had the MEGA burger, while dearest had chicken 'n' mushroom pasta.
i have to say, it was the worst swensens' experience i had.
the burger, like the name suggested, was too mammoth for me to handle.
and yeah, i couldn't finish the final few bites.
thinking of it now, it makes me wanna puke. lols.
seriously. :(

so, to satisfy my cravings, we had ice cream!
had macadamia mania, but it was not so fantastic.
coit tower still the best. :)
dear was very generous, feeding me her strawberries from her strawberry stripes.
and the most surprising thing was, the bill was way cheaper than i expected.
i thought it would be hovering around $45, but it turned out to be just $34.
that's good. :)
i bet it'll be quite a while from now until i have my next swensens' trip.

mid-way through our meal, i popped out an idea.
dear was discussing about how delighted she is to have assisted me in swimming,
so i asked her when would be my turn to tutor her in football.
then out of the blue, we spontaneously agreed to purchase a ball, and went on to kick balls
after our meal.
that was the best moment of today for me.
i felt the same feeling dear had, of feeling satisfied to pass on my knowledge on my specialty.
and yeah, in anything related to football, we sure do enjoy ourself right, shilin?
lols.
tiring, but it was nothing but full of enjoyment.
dear did well today, being at a respectable level for a female.
but i'm keen to turn her into the best. (:

i was purely exhausted after all the activity i had today, that my limps were begging for mercy.
so yeah, that means i need a lot of rest.
but it won't be long, cos tmr i'll start working out again! yay!
i want to add some beef onto my frame, man!
deeply inspired by the hunks i saw just now. (:

okay okay, enough said.
time to recuperate and revitalise myself.
nights, readers.

dear, had so much great moments with you today.
sorry if i was a pain in the neck.
but i'm determined to learn k?
i won't let you down. (:
i love you.

hey, hei sushi!

2008-06-18T23:42:00.007+08:00

hey, hey. hei sushi!
one of the best, if not, the best buffet meal i ever had.
okay lah, that's because the only buffet meals i had were during mealtimes at the hotel.
poor thing right.
LOLS.

affordable price for a high-standard sushi restaurant,
such a value-for-money. (:
had my first tastes of the wide variety of japanese food available,
and gosh, i can never live in japan.
sweet and spicy-less food are not suitable for my diet, seriously.
i need a fair share of chillies accompanying my staple food every day. (:

for my first bite, i had tamago! the egg slices were perfectly prepared.
very soft and abit chewy. yummy!
then had unagi! the sauce over the piece of eel taste damn awesome!
the salmon karaage tasted abit bland at first, but it tasted averagely good after that.
i couldn't stand the warm green tea, so ordered COKE to refresh my taste bud.
not to forget, i had chawanmushi in the earlier part of the meal.
taste good, but i got sick of it, cos it tastes so much like milk. haha.
also, we had.. kakiage, that is, a plate of sweetly fried brinjals, capcicum and carrot.
and also, had chopped unagi sushi.
the handroll tastes abit awful, cos the seaweed was not crispy.
the best thing i had was.. HOTATE!
donut-like deep-fried scallops that comes in threes on each serving. (:

ended my long three-hour meal with a ball of sesame mochi, and six slices of
c-kway (watermelon)!
total bill was $39++, but it was all worth it! (:

so anw, the trip down to downtown east was long and painful.
had to change three buses, and total journey was like almost one-and-a-half hours.
but dear and me made good use of it, watching 'i do, i do' while making our way there.
that, to me, was quality time together. holding her in my arms, and expressing ourselves
through laughters and intimate motions. (:

and dear, i'm really sorry for rising that matter up.
maybe it's just too early and too far for me to think about it,
but most importantly now is that we remain as a loving couple like we always have been!
all my apologies, and i wish ourselves a long future ahead! lols.

swimming tmr with dear, before sending her to school for training!
can't wait to get wet! hehe.
sounds wrong. lols.

sleep well, people.
goodnight!

cher, je vous aime.

the zoo; the boring; and the exciting tomorrow!

2008-06-17T21:40:00.006+08:00

16th june ~

alphabets first, illustrations later.

i swear i had the preeminent outing since years.
the zooooooooooooooooooo has changed alot, since the last time i came.
i feel so grateful, cos i was able to witness the creations of god.
such an eye-opening and meaningful trip.
it feels especially good, that i was able to spend my day with dear.
she's the only cause why i would ever visit places like the zoo.

the lengthy wait for the long-anticipated was well rewarded with a fine weather
throughout the trip, apart from the light downpour towards evening.
waking up at 7 in the morning, i was planning to leave home at 8.
but there was a slight delay, thanks to dearest.
and like always, i was late.
i love it whenever i get to meet her early in the morning.
it signals a long, enjoyable, and meaningful day ahead.
and yesterday was a great instance. (:

so, travelled to cck, and boarded bus 927.
i was expecting a long ride, but it was only like 10 minutes?!
but okay lah, enough time for me to take a nap on the returning journey. LOLS.
reached the zooooooo at.. err.. late 9 o'clock.
it's beautiful now, with kfc and ben & jerry's greeting us upon our arrival.
went straight in, and our long adventure began.

making long story short, we observed lots of animals!
okay lah, i was a bit 'jakon'. i don't know what's the english word.
cos i haven't been there for 13 years now. haha.
most of the animals were inactive, sadly.
more miserable it is thinking of the life these creatures have to undergo;
living in captivity. hais.

i was overwhelmed upon learning how these animals do their things -
communicating, adapting, social-bonding, and even eating.
i was astonished to learn that simple and meaningless human motions bares
a great significance to the creatures; eg. yawning signals tension and threat.
wow! God is great, i have to say. (:

managed to catch memorable glimpses of the animals.
staring in amazement at the dazzling somersaults of the otters,
sniffing the reeking fragrant of the mongooses,
gazing at the elegance of the white tigers doing their routinal catwalks,
loooking on as the monkeys sway their way like a flawless gymnast,
having a deep, lovely eye contact with the orang utans,
craving for my meal while watching the nyalas munching their leaves,
falling asleeeeeeep and wishing for my pillows upon looking at the resting rhinos,
cursing at my height and being envious of the skyscraper-like african giraffes,
feeling miserable and internally weeping while obseving the close-to-extinct cheetahs,
being almost shocked-to-death when the cuckatoo's scream pierced the air,
experiencing flabbergast-ment and disgust looking at the red, hot ass of the baboons,
and not forgetting, getting turned on staring at the mandrills mating.
hehe.

but the moment of the day has got to be the most romantic scene.
with everyone seeking shelter as if a grenade was showering from the top,
dear and me remained at our seats, letting the rain drench ourselves up,
while we enjoy each other's company.
it's like a drama. lols.
okay lah, anything that does not happen in every day life with dear, i'd call it romantic.
hehe.
so shiok, i want to relive that moment!

so that's my zoo trip for you, readers!
the ticket price does not equate to the remarkable experience.
so go on, and get yourself to the zoo soon!
i so love my outing. (:
thanks dear.
and sorry too, cos we got into a minor tiff that gloomed the perfect date.

went off at around approximately mid 5 o'clock.
wanted to have murtabak for dinner initially, but settled for kfc @ lot1 instead.
dear bought 'i do, i do'. okay lah, we shared money to get it.
for an uncertain reason, i had fell in love with local chinese movies.
maybe cos it's more relative to us singaporeans. (:

got home at 11 plus, and slept soooooooooooon after that.
that's my 16th june 08. :)

17th june

a total contrast to the previous one, i had a lacklustre day.
had a futsal tournament, and it was such a disappointment.
getting worn out and lacking of suffcient rest, i performed below par,
so low that i would declare it my worst soccer experience.
i didn't enjoy myself at all.

another boring moment;
the best thing i did today was to message dear and taking a short nap.
lols.

18th june, at 12.48 am.

typing all the entry above, while conversing with dear on msn.
getting a good night's sleep soon.
looking forward to tmr.
hey, hey. hei sushi!
white sands, here we come! (:
goodnight!

shilin, aku cinta padamu! :)

2008-06-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

hey, hey!
i'm back. haven't really blogged since.. yesterday? Lols.
too occupied, i guess.

yesterday, as of the fourteenth, was a very long and tiring day.
sleep at 4 the previous 'night', i had only 5 hours of sleep.
woke up at 9.30, and was rushing to finish my monthsary gift for dear.
i promised to give her a flower, and since i was having a tight schedule,
and due to financial reasons, i made her flowers myself!
sounds romantic right.. hehe.

i was super dead beat, but i didn't want to turn my back on my promise.
so there i went, cutting those sponge paper and having the super glue
all over my fingers.
but hey, it was all worth it!

and due to that, i was late for Kak Sabariah's wedding ceremony.
but i was quick to start off my work, picking up plates and stuffs.
enjoyed myself though, and was pretty pleased that i managed to contribute.
haha.

so once the guests coming in started to diminish, i left for the football match!
yeah yeah. main event of the day, cos it's our 7th month celebration!
dear looked great in her white-red dress, while me, dressed so casually.
but our night ended in disappointment.
singapore, again, lost. final match played at the kallang stadium!
the crowd was exceptionally loud, for one final time! lols.

but all that's not important.
the best thing was, dear gave me her artpiece!
it's so damn stylish lah!
a heart-shaped plank, with her scribbled handwriting, and her own tribal-listic
designs!
it's astonishing, cos dear have always said she's bad in art.
but she's being too modest, i guess. lols.

met dearest again today, as of the fifteenth.
she pleaded me to accompany her at work, and so, i did!
spent quite a while, enough time to eat, and to wear out my lappie's batt.
after work, we went shopping!
lols.
okay lah, searching for items for tomorrow's outing.
bought bread, tuna, egg, and insect repellent!
i bought a new philips earphone, as well as an orange fbt jersey too!
dear agreed to dress as a pair tmr! orange, our favourite colour. (:

i'm so looking forward to tmr.
going to the zoo. yes, to the zooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
a long-waited outing for dearest. haha.
it's been 9 years since i stepped there.
i'm so excited!
primate kingdom, here we come!
kinda crazy alr, but who cares.
i'll enjoy myself tmr! (:

but i gotta apologise to dear.
it's like, i'm making use of her.
she's gonna prepare all the food items, while i do nothing.
hais. i feel so damn useless.
thanks dearest!
i love her so much! (:

okay okay. gotta get some rest now.
i'll blog about the zoo, tomorrow.
take care, readers!

dear, thanks for everything!
can't wait to see your smile!
i love you. (:

2008-06-15T16:53:00.002+08:00

01. What are needed to be my girlfriend?
A very sweet smile! :)
02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Dubai, dream holiday!
03. What’s your favorite thing to do?
What else can it be, but to spend time with my girlfriend.
04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
No, definitely not.
05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a professional footballet, my girl wishes me to be one. (:
06. Do you prefer a kiss or a hug?
you can hug anyone, but kiss means more intimacy. so.. kissing.
07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my family, and my girlfriend.
08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
give some to the poor, and enjoy life!
09. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
only three? i have too much to list about shilin.
10. What makes you happy?
to see shilin smile!
11. What type of person do you hate the most?
temperamental, and one who boasts unnecessarily.
12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
creating some aircrafts! boeing, baby.
13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
prevent all the disasters. make the world a better place. chey!
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Humans, i need company! family, friends, and my partner!
15. Any childhood memories you’ll like to re-live?
shopping with my parents money!
16. How old do you want to get married?
she said 25, so 25 it will be (:
17. Which cartoon character you like most?
pinky patrick!
18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
Yes, ask dearest for full story!
19.Do you think you're pretty/handsome?
I don't know, people mistook me for cristiano. haha.
20.what are you doing right now beside replying this tag?
i'm at suntec! accompanying shilin at her stall.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Asyraf, nadeerah, you've been tagged! okay lah, sadly. only two of them has visited my blog so far. Grr..

as of the fourteenth.

2008-06-14T10:12:00.003+08:00

hey, hey!
to start off, let's wish dear and me a happy 7th month!
time flies so quickly.
it double the duration of my previous longest relationship!
woohoo!
way to go dearest!
let's stay together come what may. (:

anw, important msg to dearest.
so dear, later right.
meet me at the kallang busstop, must remember k?
it's the stop exactly after this bridge over the waters, it's near the kallang area alr.
it's like two or three stops after suntec city. (:
see you later, sweetheart.
i love you. (:

2008-06-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

10.49 am.
bounded by three walls, the piercing stench of urea filling the air.
reminds one of the setting of a prison, right?
i've tasted how it is to be in one.
i mean the torment of spending your time away doing nothing.
i was being stupid i guess.
LOLS. only dear know what i mean.

apart from my forgettable morning, my day went great!
dear, from what i've seen, have started to give in a lil'.
no longer that temperamental, vengeful individual.
i like. (:
so i spent quite some time with dear.
okay lah, my whole afternoon and night. haha.
it's like, as if no feud had taken place, although yesterday i thought it was the most
terrible dispute that occured all these while.

after leaving her place, we decided to head down to jp!
yeah yeah, that good old jp.
had swensens for late lunch, or rather, early dinner.
i had chilli fish pasta, while dear had chickie baked rice!
so cheap, student meal! okay lah, i mean cheaper than the normal ala carte price.
lols.
the pasta was good, serving was just right, and the fish, it was the best thing i've tasted since
the last time i had my mum's tom yam. the fillet was well cooked, juicy yet crispy.
long john and fish&co should be shameful of themselves.

for dessert, i had coit tower! woooohoooo! delicious. baby!
chocolate ice cream, choc fudge, strawberry cuts and banana slices, with wheat cream
topping. one hell of a dessert!
while i was falling in love with the coit tower, dear devoted her tastebuds to her nutty mighty.
a good meal after such a long time. (:

then, we set off to shop!
we got a pair of goggles each, for our swimming session on next thurday! ~wheee.
dear then went to try on some shoes, but didn't get any eventually.
and also, we tried looking for cheap soccer balls, so that we can have our own training session. LOLS.
i couldn't believe that i was able to accompany her today without getting bored and mad, maybe because i've vowed to myself to treat her better from now onwards. haha.

towards the end of our shopping spree, dear revealed her plans of getting a couple polo.
which, we had very little time to search for.
no, no. it was because i didn't have the bucks. so sad.
i was more saddened to see her disappointed face.
but at least i gave dear a promise to get it for our 8th month instead! yes, 8th month! so fast time flew. HAHA. :)

famous amos was our final destination.
got butterscotch, chips & macadamia, and chips & pecan!
i'm munching them now. lols.
so yummy, but oh so costly. haha.
pocket's drying up quick.

so tmr, sadly, i won't get to see chua shilin!
hope my day won't be miserable without her.
i've got so much things to do tmr. hais.
i'll miss her though, mushy mushy. haha.
but i promise, dear, i'll return with a bang on saturday!
i'll make sure you'll be proud of me. lols.

so okay, it's getting late.
eyes getting heavy, limbs starting to ache.
i'd better get some rest.
tmr will be a long day, but i hope i can survive.
goodnight. (:

dear, wo ai ni.

2008-06-12T08:51:00.002+08:00

i just lived a moment that i once experienced in a dream.
if that's the parameter of things, then you should have checked thoroughly first.
if that is the parameter of things, we should have seen how much do i have of yours.
all the way from where we started.
all the problems we faced.
all the moments we cherished.
all those i have written in a notepad.

and i'm being put on the sword for being too concerned.
yeah yeah, i was too immature back then.
but now i understand the pinch of losing your money.

i know you tell me all those does not matter,
cos ultimately, i didn't tell you.
you know how i'd react when we talk about our past,
i just didn't want you to suffer the same fate.

now i'm being accused.
how can you ever judged things so easily.
i feel unfair.
those feelings have long gone, and have never returned.

sorry readers,
i just got to say this
that SHe is the only one i care for, and the one
i've loved, i'm loving, and i'll always be loving.

you should know me best.

2008-06-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

arrgghh, man. i bet all of you had a better day than me.
but one good thing though, i managed to survive a long, monotonous day.
well, provided with the fact that i've not stayed at home the whole day for the past few months.
hehe.
i'm always outside; there's always something for me to do.

i feel damn uneasy not meeting dear today.
maybe it's not too much a good thing to see her everyday.
cos i'll take it for granted, you know what i mean.
and then in times, like today, i'll keep feeling uncomfortable and 'die-die also want to see her'.
but i couldn't, sorry sweetheart.

today was too boring, that the only thing i enjoyed was the conversation with my mum,
that is, about her past. i swear today was the 53rd time i heard it, all over from the beginning.
LOLS.
so enough said, you know how my day was like.

having to put crackers into small packets, close to two hundred pieces of them,
took me the whole afternoon.
arms aching, my brain worn out. i didn't know my day would be this bad.
but hey, 'isham. you're doing a good deed! it's all for a good cause. (:

i had one hell of a feeling today.
it feels so good, it's been long since i experienced it. woooooohoooo!
it feels good not to make my mum angry.
i didn't have to hear her scream over the phone, i didn't have to be welcomed by a fuming face
when i return home. LOLS.
and again, today, i felt i've taken my mum for granted.
you know, this feeling of doing too much wrong, guilt of having lied too much to her.
hais.

so anw, tmr i'll be meeting dear! wheee!
so excited. i'm gonna smile so broadly the first thing i see her.
i'm not gonna take her for granted anymore; i know it has no link to smiling.
HAHA.
gonna spend some great time before she goes for training, while i'm gonna kick some balls.
hope i'll be blogging about a great day tmr. (:
it's always great when i get to see dearest.
lols.

it's 12.14 now.
i'd better get going. have to get up early tmr!
off to commonwealth, before meeting dear.
bedtime!

gooooodie night, readers.

and i'm gonna tell her i love her.
oh-so-ever-mushy me. (:

2008-06-10T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hehe. Putting my survival skills into good use now.
The water's boiling with the solid noodles submerged in the pot now.
Extremely hungry, totally forgot about having dinner while with dearest just now.
LOLS.

Another day, another meeting, another great moment!
Yeah, yeah. Always wonderful, with dear. (:
First half of the day was plainly boring and uneventful, until I met dear.
I was late, no doubt about that. I'm always having problem with contacts.
So that's my excuse why I was late. Hehe.

I had my first sight of dearest today at around 3, @ bugis mrt station.
She looks great in the dress lah, must get more of those for her someday!
Like I mentioned yesterday, we planned to get the sg vs saudi match ticket, which we did.
So much problems, but we finally got our hands on the cream-coloured tickets after dear
purchased it from the general office at the Jalan Besar stadium.
Thanks dear, for paying for my tickets. Or is it that I forgot to return the money just now? Haha.

Then we headed to.. Bugis Street! Went to shop for threequarter pants!
Got one from 'graphite', a white one! So cheap, okay lah, cheapest among the others. (:
Quite tight though, but it only motivates me to slash some meat! woooooooooooooo.
I felt bad, hais, for not getting dearest anything.
Dear's such a great company, thank you!
Walked, walked, walked. Trying to get her short pants, but in vain. Sigh..

Ended our outing at Mcd's, getting some rest and replenish ourselves, with none other than ICE LEMON TEA! It's a daily drink; dear must be nodding her head now. Lols.

I truly enjoyed my time so much, that I have to say even the bus trip home was wonderful.
Talked about all the things under the sun; there's just something to talk about.
Such a contrast from the same period of time last year; me and her, there were inevitable awkward silence every time we stepped into the bus.
I'm so happy with our progress! 7th month coming, baby! ~wheeeeeee!
Haha.

Getting in a solemn mood now, I won't be able to see dear tmr.
I'll be at home, trying to get some work done, besides helping my mum with preparations for my cousin's wedding reception.
I'll rot at home, I swear.
Hais. Thursday, faster come will you?
Another mushy statement - dear, i'll missssss you!
Lols.

Okay people, I have to get running! Noodle's calling me!
I'll slurp those curry while talking to dear on msn.
take care, peeps.
Have a better day than me tmr!

aku cinta padaku! lols.
aku cinta padamu! (:

2008-06-10T00:18:00.003+08:00

Never in these sixteen years, have I watched three movies in the space of three consecutive days. Quite crazy, but that was what dear and me did.
Sorry dear, I was too lacking of ideas, so movies had to be the last resort.
I mean, the best alternative. LOLS.

So today, like mentioned earlier, we caught another movie!
This time, it's at Causeway Point Cathay Cineplex.
It's the newly-released animated comedy, 'Kung Fu Panda'!
The storyline was awesome, and the humour never fails to tickle my laughing nerves,
you get what I mean right..
I love the animations, so real! wooooooo, impressive!
To good to be true; I rate it second best to my all-time favourite animated film, Monster Inc. (:
Alot of learning tips throughout the 90minutes runtime,
even nothing means something.

Headed to the home of local football club, Gombak United, immediately after the movie.
Wanted to get tickets, but sigh, were disappointed once again.
So dear and me planning to get the tickets at Jalan Besar tmr.
Yay! Going out with dearest again! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! Lols.
Back to today, we decided to watch the league cup semi-final encounter between
Gombak United and Young Lions, since we were already at the stadium.
Goals galore, with two goals scored in the first half. Final score was 4-1, to Gombak. (:
Great goals, but more impressive was the goal celebrations from the no. 19!
quadruple somersaults, baby! so cooool! Haha.

Headed home during the half-time, cos didn't want to return home late.
So yeah, dearest. I'm damn sorry we were not able to stay until the final whistle.
I know she's disapppointed.
Sent dearest home, did our nightly routine, and off I went!
So, that's my 9th of june for you!
Lols.

Time to get some rest, and yes, can't wait to meet dearest tmr!
Another tour around town, and getting the tickets for saturday's match.
Hope i'll enjoy my day tmr! (:

Dear, sorry if you were struggling to feel happy about the things we did today.
But hey, it doesn't matter what we do right..
As long as we're on each others' side.
To see the beauty of your smile is already enough to brighten my day. (:
so mushy and cliche, but who cares. LOLS.

Goodnight everyone.
I love you, shilin.

2008-06-09T02:31:00.002+08:00

you don't know how hard it is.
the pressure on my shoulders having to crack my brains.
how nice it would be if you can understand.
i'm demoralised deep inside.
it makes me weak, inside i feel useless.
i want to weep. cos i'm a man,
and i'm suppose to take the lead.
but i'm not standing by my responsibilities.
i just can't think.
i feel inferior, when it comes to times where we can't decide.
i've suppose to be decisive, but i'm just so afraid.
it'll not be the only time, we've been thru this for number of times
and i'm sure we'll be facing this again in no time.
i'm just afraid you might be relying on me to bring you to new places.
i'm sorry i can't.

first entry; only the beginning!

2008-06-09T00:36:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone! This is my first ever official blog entry! woohoooo!
Wanted to have a blog of my own since long ago, but though it's uncool
for a guy to have one. Lols.
But who cares now, i'm more than happy to have one. (:

Actually created this blog last week, but was busy with studies.
You know, exam week. Was busy 'mugging', it's so unlike me.
All thanks to dearest, for helping with the set-ups, templates and whatsoever.
Thank you, dear!~

After a whole week of exams, now it's time for a break! wheeeee!
May be a short one, but a long list of things to do.
Going on dates, yes dearest, dates! smiling now right.. hehe.
Science centre, the zoo, rollerblading, soccer match, and many more
destinations still under planning.
I'm still looking to bring dear to the newly-constructed area close to Alexandra Park.
Hoping that it'll be a new hotspot to catch the
ever-gorgeous sunset!
Hehe, i'm excited myself.

So anyway, I so enjoyed myself on the first two days of my break.
Firstly, dear and me went to the Kallang Leisure Mall, one of the few malls
that we've never gone to. Lols.
It's not completely contructed yet though, so nothing much there.
Caught 'Made of Honour', and it was great lah!
Never had i watched such a romantic, inspirational yet comical movie.
I wanna be like Tom! No, not being a flirtatious hottie.
But i admire his spirit. (:
dear was noticably naughty ytd, but it doesnt matter.
I'm naughty all the time! Haha.

Then today, had a futsal selection session for the mosque's futsal team.
And i'm in the main team! wheee.
I was already damn exhausted and out of steam early in the session.
I've lost my stamina, no longer fit like how I used to be.
Getting fat and unfit. Even my bro notices it. Hais..
Tournament in 13 days lah!
Move your butt and exercise, Muhammad 'Isham!

Moving on, I spent my late afternoon with dearest!
I swear i enjoyed her company, from the cheapskate meal
till the end of the movie!
Yeah, yeah. Another movie! But this time, a lil' bit lower a standard.
'Just Follow Law' on vcd, played on dear's lappie.
No big screen, no cinema atmosphere. But it doesnt matter at all.
As long as dear's there to spend her time, and share her laughters with me. (:
Thanks sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetheart!
I'm so enjoying life right now! Lols.

I'm nursing my bruises now, while eagerly engrossed composing my first entry
of my blog!
Will be meeting dearest later in the day, but still uncertain of what to do. Haha.
I'm damn excited looking at the plans I have for this term break!
Dear, trust me. You'll have the time of your life over the next two weeks.
Be excited! Haha.

However dear, I'm still sorry I wasn't able to spend as much time as we both
had hoped for, although we do meet every single day. Lols.
Quite contradicting, but only Chua Shilin can understand what I mean. (:

Yay! I've reached the end of the entry for today. Time to remove my contacts,
get washed up, talked to dearest, and then off to bed! weeeeeheeee!
will be having 'training' tmr right, dearest? lols.
So okay, i'll get going.
Goodnight everyone, if there happens to be anyone reading this. (:

I love you.

First Post!

2008-06-01T18:54:00.000+08:00

hello, i'm blogging on behalf of mohamo 'isan. LOLS
ANW, tmr can watch soccer match. HOHOHOHOH!